HER BIMBOTIC RANTS.

The sweetest taboo.

2006-06-03T13:57:00.000+08:00

Away with Pure Chemistry nd Biology extra lessons ! (x Now I'm only left with Amath, Emath nd Geography this coming week.

Had lunch yesterday with Cindy, Shir nd Jayne at ljs :DD yummy pls. Bought sister's lunch as well (the chicken rice smells good). Then bought baking ingredients before Jayne came over to my place for our baking session till late hahahs. Sadly, mum nd two relatives were at home too. Bahh. We had a little trouble at first, but it all turned out good in the end eh ? Made chocolate chip cookies (: Fun time. Then met Auntie out for dinner at tamp mall. Ate my bi bim bap :DD Mum bought home 10bucks worth of sushi for Ahkor :\ She shouldn't have lah ? Since he already went out for dinner with his girlfriend. Goodness. Anw, it was a tiring day.

Woke up very early this morning to have breakfast with the adults at Bedok Interchange. An old man was having turtlesoup :X omfg. It's so gross lah. Then sent Auntie off before drove down to the supermarket. Had to replenish many stuff at home ! Haha. How very heavy. Thus the payment made was about 130bucks ; I think it's too much. Oh I've gotten purple hangers for my closet as well lol. Need to sort things out soon.

Dad dropped by TP for awhile, then we also bought lunch for siblings. I didn't buy any lunch for myself >:( super annoyed by mum for nagging at me for no reason. Don't know what's her problem anw. Even dad side for me. Lalas mann. So now I've to search for food at home. Grr.

Don't say sorry ; everything's just my own fault.

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The 90th post. Perhaps I shall start a new blog.
A need for change ? Yes please.
Goodbye my love. It's time to put you aside (:
But never forgotten.
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Sugar we're going down swinging-

2006-06-01T21:29:00.000+08:00

My apologies for the previous entry being so hostile. I've gotten over it lah. Ahahs.

School's so dull please. We were almost falling asleep especially during Biology ? Lol. Had 2 mini doughnuts nd 1 french toast for break. Then lunched at block85 (: ICE KACHANG. Heheheh. Rushed back for Module3 Pure Chemistry till afternoon. Oh it started to rain heavily, but lucky thing they brought umbrellas (x After which I helped Jayne return the library books nd off to home. Mum called to say we'll be eating out for dinner ! Hohos.

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Back from Eunos :DD Yummy food we had at Eng Seng Restaurant (it isn't air-conditioned though). It was to celebrate grandmother's birthday. Pepper nd chilli crabs were the main dishes ! Hee. Ate super alot lah. Today I've got a huuuggeee appetite haha. Sadly, the place closes early before 9pm ? Business is good I guess.

I never knew people would actually read this silly blog of mine. Lalas man lol. It could be both an advantage, as well as a disadvantage. Hurr. Anw, another blog would be setted up for selling stuffs [: Very soon I hope ! I'm so rubbish. Alrights, shall stop here. Toodles.
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let it take over.

2006-05-31T19:08:00.000+08:00

Everything was just screwed up.

Skipped Module1 of Pure Chemistry yesterday to have prata with the girls. Then we went home to get prepared (: Cindy nd Jayne came over to my house. They like my silly room ! Hurrs. After which I helped Jayne with her makeup nd pedicure (I'm quite good lah) as well as mine hahah. By the tym we were ready to go off, it was already about 7.30pm. Trained down to meet the others.

Nd then the mess came. MOS was horrendously filled with so many youngsters, many who were like bengs nd lians (I apologise) hanging around the entire place. Well, there were crowds of good-looking people overall. Met into friends nd some sorts, all the familiar faces ahah. The queue was effing long so I decided to find a friend who sold us the tickets, hoping that she would be able to bring us in. Some of them decided to give up waiting nd left. Marcus nd his friends came later on trying to get in too. Waited for a fking 3 solid hours standing. Sheesh. But after many attempts, to no avail. Time was getting late, more bouncers turned up. There wasn't any chance for us to sneak in etc. Maybe we should have went earlier as checking would not have been so strict so we would surely get in ? Fucked up pls. There was even a barrier after midnight. We left the place in the end, not even going into the area at all. Rarrhh.

You can never know how pissed I am lah. Steam man >:(( Everyone is. I didn't even get to sell off the tickets. Took a cab home from there with Mich nd was fuming the whole ride through. Even the dumb driver didn't dare speak lol. Mum wasn't too happy about all this, neither am I. Wasting so much money just for a stupid night when I'd rather spend it all on something more reproductive. A time of partying was over in such a short time. Without doing ANYTHING. How fuck is that ? hahah.

MOS : How could you cheat people of their money ? Selling tickets to everyone without bothering about the number of clubbers that the place is able to accommodate. Nd certainly it would be much much better if there was music nd tents outside the entrance, so that people waiting or hanging around could just party outside nd groove. Am I not right ? I'm sure that many others would appreciate it too yeah. Last night was totally off-hand. Awful experience.

Continued with my complains to Shir nd others today. Ahahah. We had extra lessons till noon. Okay I'm already trying to cool down over the stupid matter. Then left for prata nd macs :DD yummy food. Came home early to rest after that. Lalas mann. Added more stuff to my blog -points. Lol. Anw, found this from an email :

October Baby
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.

Laugh please.

Set me free-

2006-05-30T01:17:00.000+08:00

Fuck.
Sorry for being so crude ):
I'm brooding over it yet again. Miss him so.
I still have my strawberry lollipop ? Sigh.

Had tuition on sunday morning nd went home after. Packed my room a little. Watched cable the whole day too. Pretty boring a day I suppose ?

MT Olevels are done with yesterday (: It wasn't all bad lah, but many mistakes spotted. I'm glad that it's already over so we can relax for the time being. Went to have lunch at Tamp's ljs :DD yummy, steamy hot chicken ehehehhehs. Then went home to get a shower nd changed before meeting Cindy.

Jayne nd Shir came along after nd we trained down to town, wanting to get our stuffs. Famous Amos is superb pls. Then looked around Forever21 nd Topshop but to no avail. Took pictures though ! Our favourite hahahs. Walked on to Fareast nd bought my black top from Candle ): COST ME ! hurrs. helped jayne nd cindy choose their stuffs as well (x settled on everything by 9pm nd back to home lol. I can't wait for the night pls.

Forget about sweet love.

2006-05-27T12:40:00.000+08:00

Yesterday's parent-teacher conference was pretty much okay I guess ? My results reflected badly this time round, especially the Mathematics. Mum was telling me off about stuff while waiting for the bus to the mrt station. Rarhh. Then we trained down to town to meet Aunty Cindy (who waited for 2hrs) for some shopping (: She gave me a big hugg ! Ahah. Yes, the Great Singapore's Sale commence :DD

The shop's closed early though, so only managed to purchase those footwear I've been wanting to get. Anw, mum wasn't in the mood to shop too, complaining about wearing heels. Sheesh. So we went to get some sides from Ajisen nd ate at Wisma's Food Republic. Had our ebi prawns, gyozas, popiahs, fried carrot cake, dim sums nd drinks (x Yum yumms please. Oh mum asked me about ggr nd bgr. Damn lol. She insisted that she's right about everything lah. Afraid that I might be into a GGR. Hur who am I kidding ? Aunty also asked me about smoking amongst youngsters nowadays. Lalas man. We dropped by Nike nd Forever21 too. Wanted to get the shoes but there wasn't anymore sizes. Then the tops i wanted were all gone ! Oh my ):

Headed down to Dad's pub at Lucky Plaza. Played with the touch-screen machine while they were still drinking :\ HAHAH. I like the games. After which we went off to pick up Ah kor nd his girlfriend since it was way past midnight. Reached home at 2am ! Too tired to blog last night.

Well, midnight shopping only applies today nd next week 2nd-3rd June. Bahh. I'd better start on the online learning program though :\ But I'm lazyy. Ehehehhehs. Shall have my lunch now, yummy spaghetti =) Nd yes, PS : I'll be more strict with my English from now i suppose. Helps for preparation of O levels. Teachers are reading blogs as well ! Goodness ahah.

i dont wnna be a stupid girl-

2006-05-26T15:15:00.000+08:00

yesterday, school's screwed up. went to get bubble tea after school before heading home (: Blue Coral ehehehhehs. showered nd changed. then trained down to town. i was sleeping through the whole ride lol. looked around at Forever21 :DD i love that shop. then had to meet up with marcus for the tickets at cityhall so i trained back >:( tapped out nd had to tap in again rarrh. anw, he looked good lah for his young age ? ahah nd all the while i've been picturing him in my mind, him as a little boy hurhur. the tickets do look lyk brochures, sheesh. oh ! lucky thing is that it starts from 8 till late, not 9. so i have a higher possibility to go >:) after which i went back to wisma again. lalas mann. my ezlink has negative value alrd heh.

tried on some tops. although nyce, pretty expensive for my budget ND there wasn't any that matches my yellow skirt ): AHH. i'd look lyk some bright weirdo. bad choice of colour to start with. then i went up to Topshop as well ? that top i wanted wasn't on sale alrd ! rawrr. i need help mann.

today's the collection of report books. marmi will be going to sister's school first since it's at Ang Mo Kio while mine's at Bedok. see the distance ? hahah. yeah, my timing is at 5.15pm onwards so i'm still waiting at home for her call. currently watching MTV sea now (x darn cool pls. (i'm trying to keep my calm hahahs) nothing much to do alrd =\ i can't be bothered about studying right now.

sweet nightmare.

2006-05-25T00:22:00.000+08:00

tuesday
got back our english pprs >:(( i missed a slight 0.5 mark to obtain a B4 lah ? very saddening. then we went to ws macs for lunch. did our emath homework alrd.

then marmi suddenly checked on me ? wthh. but yeah, she cabbed home with sister first. went home ltr nd talked to her about my results. well sort of. she said i had to stay at home for the holidays ; means grounded lah. but i tried to talk her into letting me off for maybe 2 days ? since i've alrd planned to go MOS. bought the tickets alrd i don't care (x yet she haven't given me a proper reply.

wednesday
last to get back was our ss pprs =\ pathetic. did not do very well for section B hahah. at least we passed eh (: ate at ws foodcourt. had dessert yummy. then was told that they won't be going on tuesday ): effing disappointed but in no position to do anything also. decided to leave earlier, jayne had to meet someone too ahah. marmi was alrd at home when i went back ? so surprising. i had a good long sleep :DD

tmr's collection of tickets at cityhall. most likely i would go walkwalk-shopping myself a while too ? nobody's free i suppose. then friday would be parent-tcher meeting nd getting the report books. rarrh.

what's going on ? i don't get it. i don't get anything. tell me why.

pretty woman.

2006-05-22T21:24:00.000+08:00

i've uploaded more pictures for this entry (:

back to school. had homeworks nd all. very disappointed ? i failed my emath papers as well, to my disbelief. could see that tcher wasn't too happy lah (neither am i). cried lyk a fking ass >:(( nd parent-tcher conference is coming up soon. rarrh. alrytes we saw our silly class photo. how awful [: bah. click to enlarge.

spotted me yet ? if not, here's a blurred close up.

we headed to Macs for lunch. ate to my heart's content since i didn't have any recess =\ then we did a little work before giving up. took pictures :DD we love jaslyn's camera hfone feature. click to enlarge.whoopees hurr.1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 :]in the library corner being boredd.
the retarhds out lose ! rawrrs.we were feeling blackk. nd crazyy. so "act cutee wOrRxXZ" -ahems.

nd oh the joy. we've gotten ourselves tickets to MOS x)
for 18 bucks we'd better have a good tym ahah.
oh VAUNT. thnks !

i found a print i took. ehehehhehs.

nd this is originally done by ME two years back. yet i've noticed it in ppl's friendsters (?) so i've been wondering how they gotten it when i haven't been using it. sheesh.

oh nd here's my current bedsheet cover ! pretty style eh ? HAHAH. ilike Ausinno brand.

Yes. I'm trying to be a happy fucktardd nd live life as it is.
): Sighs.

I WANT MENG PO TANGG. ='( nd to erase off my pain.

pop princess hold my hand-

2006-05-21T20:17:00.000+08:00

marmi has been nagging at me for 3 consecutive days alrd >:(( so f pls.

had conference for hours on saturday before deciding to go out. left the house to walk walk with jaslyn nd geraldine. being cooped up at home do nothing is bad for health lah =\ we only went tamp to EAT ahahs. when one's stress or depress, eating becomes a habit. read magazines at Times too (: stayed out late till close to midnight mann. marmi questioned me -rawrr. i even had to have dinner so late oh my tiann.

had my chocolate swiss roll from Hans. then squid head from Old Chang Kee. then banana yoghurt milkshake from Sweet Talk. then the classic ice cream cone from the supermarket. then a small sprite from MACS. nd finally a slice of AMERICAN CHEESECAKE from Cafe Cartel.

cheesecake ? it's my all tym favourite )): sigh.
-flashbacks.

today was back to tuition at 201. i was late for half an hour but managed to catch up fast (: tcher wasn't angry with me. nd i found out that i did better than them although i flunked amath. still not a good thing lah. we did integration for this lesson after which we left for tamp. i wanted to share with syy what happened since she asked too. but you know me, i prefer to keep things to myself. what for pull others down when it isn't their worries ? i'll smile alryte.

so we walked around before settling down at ljs for lunch. talked about the pretty normal stuffs nd looked around shops. met into bestie cheryl after so long =) she's SO tall lah hahs. then got our banana milkshakes on the way home. yummy drink.

still ate porridge :X effing bloated. but i'm annoyed that they ate my dumpling which was for myself >:( hmpfs. watched Date Movie tgt with family in the living room. then da ge called me ? 2 other persons also msged. others left me msgs on the previous post. hmmms. i'm fine ): please dont be too nyce. i don't deserve it eh ? hai. it's only been 2 days. i still have a long way to battle through.

dinner was prepared by daddy beforehand (father's love hees). then my current favourite show started on cable chn56 :DD ER MO ZAI SHEN BIAN -superr love it. sister had second thoughts on the show (see nyce ryte) ehehehhehs. i can't wait for next episode.

can't be bothered to do my homeworks leh ? RARRH.
read all the past entries i have to date. silly stuffs but i like.
240105 ? laugh.
i'm quite contented for the tym being. all those tyms. those concerns. thanks guys.

over nd done with.

2006-05-20T00:50:00.000+08:00

190506 today is a farking BLACK day.
it started off with a bad hair day =more results. what can i do or say, okay i'll just laugh them off ):

English : -
Chinese : 60/100 B4
Amath : 48.1/100 D7
Emath : -
Pure chem : 41.7 /100 E8
Sub PhyBio : ~~(physics 58/100)(biology 62.4/100)~~ 60.2/100 B4
Sub GeogSS : ~~(geography 26/50)~~

it's lyk i just needed 2 more pathetic marks to pass amath ? that is super saddening lah. the rest i knew i didn't do very well because i only studied some parts.

went tamp with the usuals (: okay but i hate that place. met into some people nd all. lunched at ljs, then we had to wait for the NFFs to finish their food (after some tym) so that jaslyn can _____. after which we went off to ws again. ate macs ice cream ; yummy. then went to the library to do some reading (er magazines) until around 0705pm.

all i did was ate nd slept when home.
until i received his msg at 1131pm -
nd that was how it all ended.

should i be ~~happy~~ or disappointed ? i'm a pessimist. realised that i should be initiating it quite some tym alrd. yet because it's too difficult for me. i had no clue why we've distant nd drifted. can tell me was it my fault ? maybe all along he's been giving hints by not msging close to a month.

how many tyms that friends have been trying to tell me : don't think so much. give up. move on. let go. for afterall, it seems lyk i'm the only one trying hard to hold on (on the other hand was he?). i didn't know what to do alrd, nd not even know why it all ended up this way. but i was so stubborn not to listen. WHYY. at one point i thought the reason was due to my not giving in all into this relationship. but look, it turned out to be just lyk the others : it won't last long. its making me cry all over again. perhaps we were too fast tgt.

i thought it was gnna be much much better than those previous. i've tried my best to make myself trust guys again. i hoped for a miracle. yet soon enough, i'm torn apart. not only was my self-esteem affected, but so were my studies nd attitude. my heart is dead nd empty. i'm such a failure. IF ONLY SOMEONE CAN KILL ME BECAUSE I WANT TO DIE. bang me down, shoot me whatever i don't care. what am i to look forward to from now ? it's lyk as if part of me i gone.

i've decided not to go into any other relationship as for now. i need quite a while to get over it all. i'm sick nd tired too. i'd rather stick to my girls. at least we have more to share. or maybe i might even isolate myself away from people. being alone won't pull me down as much as this. everything's a misery because of problems. the state of unwanted mess.

it's the 2nd month 22nd day
hurts alot to part for now
esp when there's still feelings ;
but i'd say thanks for all those lovely tyms we had.
nd if we ever had another chance -
i most certainly would.

it was just another heartbreak.

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i can't sleep well >:(( i have many qns.
have u ever loved me at all ? do u know i've been crying all this while becos of u ? don't tell me my waiting meant nothing to u ? how long have u been wanting to give up ?
or is it because of me ? have i made u very upset ? if i did. then i would let go easily. because seeing u unhappy because of me is the last thing i want to do.
it's gnna take me along tym nd i'll try my best.
but i'm afraid to go out bcos everything would remind me of us_
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let's fly away-

2006-05-18T22:40:00.000+08:00

lalas mann =\ feeling so emo-ish (?) ah whatever.

tuesday
went out with shir to plaza sg (: we had a really nyce tym tgt. we walked around the whole place in search for macs to get our milkshake but to no avail. rarhh. so i had my this lemonade juice from andersens' while she got herself mcflurry ahahs. played 2 tyms of percussion master with her ! since it was her first try, ehehehhehs :DD not bad lah okays ? anyhoo, silly me got PANGSEH-ED last minute W/O KNOWING =( it's super saddening yanno ? lucky my girl's always by my side (i hope) so we went to buy some correction fluid nd took the train back. i fking stood down nd cried lyk an idiot in the train lah ~~hai~~. girl sent me a thotful msg hahas (even though she was just beside me!) then headed down to Pasir Ris Park to graffiti the areas =\ i grabbed mac's banana milkshake nd munch house's noodles for us too =)

we gotten more mosquito bites than quality tym to ourselves lol. oh wells, she had to leave early so we couldn't go to the rocks. sent her off to flag her cab, that familiar spot. after which i walked off myself to go home.

wednesday
school-ed nd all. had a big break down after recess ): pretty saddening. made my eyes blotchy, dirtied the desk with my tears. wth ? hmmm. they all thought it was because of THAT. but only partly to it, i have more problems that affected me lah. they just won't get it eh ? my life's a misery that puts me down. legion photo-taking today afternoon, nd then to ws for lunch with the usuals. got home nd plonked early to bed. heard marmi opening nd closing the drawers of my stuffs. WTF. have no idea what she's up to lah, but yeah she even pretended to be nyce nd walked out of the room after realising i awoked.

thursday
got back some results. shocked faces. super horrible to an extent i wished i didn't had any. pure chemistry had many blanks. stupid careless mistakes nd not knowing that there was a part b) caused me a difference of 2 grades for sub`biology as i lost 8 marks.

pure chemistry : 41/100 E8
sub`biology : 62.4/100 B4
sub`physics : 58/100 C5

i guessed those study groups weren't really so effective as thought to be ? ahahs. we got to do out own self-revision alrd mann :O no more macs for me pls. went ws to have our lunch nd slept in the library lols ! woke up with a stupid left ache on me, jaslyn had many hurts as well ! hees. geraldine's perfectly fine xDD went home. marmi's behaving weirdly infront of me ! >:(( she has been noticing me all the tym lah. sheesh, there's really something to it aye. today she's gnna sleep in my room. pffft.

let's hope tmr's a brighter one. pls ?
- imiss darling.

BEEP

2006-05-16T01:55:00.000+08:00

back to school yet again (but there is a holiday for us today !) we are gnna have MT drills every day from 0740 to 1015 till 25 may =\ ahahh. but the sec2s worse, theirs is lyk whole school day ya ? lol. had class photo-taking. i suppose i look stupid lah ? i FORCED a smile, how retarhded can i get x( but lucky this last year of schooling, i'm standing up instead (though it's just 2nd row). went back class nd talked to shir. we took pictures ! hahah.

he msged me ! (: i feel contented. but what's the details for ltr? i have no idea. please don't give up on me.

OH MY TIANN. i've gotten myself into alot of trouble >:((

1) my results for MT prelim totally demoralized me ? ): i couldn't even get a B3 for the papers. hai. what more an A2 when i can't surpass a B. marmi will be unhappy about this.

2) went to slack at our usual place. this tym round we were SUPERR unfortunate. after eating at the foodcourt nd walking around, we went down to get macs banana milkshake (so yummy sweet). jayne left with melody so only left the three of us wandering around aimlessly. we decided to walk to downtown ? bumped into NFF there, so we went back ws again. rest at the benches again. who knows, _____ nd friends saw us when they came up the escalator :O we were being __________ nd ______ when we were about to go home :X remember this : "never judge a book by its cover". went to the nearest void deck nd pondered about it. we just dont understand ? =( im effing upset nd worried lah. cried lyk a dumbass there, we were so lost i tell you. didn't know what to do alrd.

okays skipped dinner =\ can't be bothered mann. off to sleep its alrd past midnyte.

nytes darling. i still love you so.

i missed you.

2006-05-14T22:08:00.000+08:00

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY ! jaslyn sent me a msg saying she cut my hfone line off last nyte because i fell asleep in the conference :X hahahs stupid me. went church today morning to collect certificate for confirmation. jaslyn was still asleep when i called her 8469237 tyms today ! ahahs. so we helped her to get hers. anw, everything's with joanna since i had plans to go out nd it was raining VERY heavily =\ hard tym running to the bus stop nd i was too early. met up with cindy at tamp (: it had been quite awhile since i went out with girlfriend.

headed down to bugis. we talked superr alot lah ? hahahahah. walked around parco nd bugis street ; take picture ya AHAH :DD i saw the crown necklaces at only $15 (still able to slash down to lower price) then there was this pretty nyce black jacket with gold wordings ? WE LIKEE. heehees. oh then we went to her marmi's salon cut hair =D trimmed my fringey for cheapcheap only. cindy look so jap ah -cute girl x) tmr photo-taking alrd ): poor awful me with the face, machiam monster with pimples.

then we trained back to tamp because there wasn't much to see alrd lol. finally i got to try the chocolate milkshake from macs ! yummy (: but very full. so we walked somemore hahah. rest at the arcade's spoilt machine hur. we were lyk fooling around lo ? take the gun nd pretend to play "bang!" nd all xDD people walk pass always look in hahahahs. aye, wonderful natalie took the sticky label of "out of order" nd paste it at one of the daytona's machine instead ! HAHAS. we were laughing effing madd pls ! kn stomach pain lols. oh wells, got take picture of it lah ? but i think i deleted it ): lalas mann. went home tgt.

had dinner with family ? parents brought home many yumyumms food :DD ate pepper nd chilli crabs, herbal chicken nd all. hehh ate lyk pig. alrytes, tmr's back to school ! oh my tiann. i shall go catch my sleep now. take care ya.

should i not doubt

you're still part of me-

2006-05-13T21:37:00.000+08:00

Because iloveyou whether it's wrong or right ;
nd though i can't be with you by your side
remember my heart's with you.

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>> :(

made a simple clip/video =)
thought i'd lyk to post it up ? yeaps.
spent quite a long 8hrs on it without slp =\ i hope its okayy.

anw, rushed out today to meet jaslyn nd geraldine (: it was raining though. supposed to go kbox ? but cancelled nd we walked around tamp instead (why is every place so boring ?) hahahs. jaslyn went to say HI to her NFF. ahah then we walked away to han's to snack. thing's got pretty boring so we went walking again =\ until she had to leave for dinner, so left ger nd me. took a busride down to ws, slept through the whole tym 0.0 played with the shades at robinons. oh we also bought the sweetsweet ribbon-earrings ! lalas mann. then ate fries at macs. then ice cream. then twister fries. HAHAH ! oh my tiann we eat so much lah ? nd we were little meanies laughing at people around us xDD funny tym ya. heehees =X HUM GU TAO hor.

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i hate. i HATE. I HATE.
tell me straight what's wrong.
why do i cause so much misery to those around me.
marmi aren't you ever tired of nagging at your own daughter ?
how about sister nd ahkor.
why always push all the blame just to the middle child ; is it better this way ?
can't you see i'm lyk lost for words. i'm effing hurt.
everyone of you can just fark off for now. ='(
i'm sorry for being such a bitch.
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L.O.V.E

2006-05-13T05:42:00.000+08:00

it's earlyy in the morning nd i'm still not asleep ; bahh.

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morning =D it's alrd 0748AM. currently still missing my darling -frowns.
anw, was talking to da ge awhile ago online lol.

alrytes, the last 2 pprs of MYE was lyk shiet ahahs. everyone went on about how easy it was nd having the same answers (okay listening wasn't so bad) but just lyk the other pprs, my subscience ppr1 probably died on me too. oh wells. at least everything's over for now so i must relax before olvl MT examination nd those stupid drills they implemented for us.

on that last day, people usually hangout at town or somewhere; even tamp is not too bad yeah ? BUT. we spent the whole day, effing about 11 hrs in ~~pasir ris~~, slacking all the way. even got a stupid service at macs from those aunties >:((

yet we did many stuff lah ? ate nd slept a whole lot there :DD walked the whole mall lyk always (sheesh). talked nd talked all the way. read some books at the library nd bumped into LITTLE CANDYY hahah ! so 'dao', aye ? stupid guy. then there was jaslyn celeste's NFF ! -new found friend, the blackcharcoal. lols x) so then we left, nd jayne went off. decided to walk at pasir ris park. came upon this big empty stone we climbed on to. wrote stuff nd made wishes ! (:

then the flies disturbed us so we ran away. anyhoo, it was getting dark too. we even went to a dead end haha. geraldine is ~~afraid of dogs~~, to my surprise xD she didn't want to walk past them initially. teehee. oh we couldn't find another route so had to walk back to ws. it was a wayyy long distance with many mosquitoes =

bought our bubble teas ! went to cool down awhile at a bench in ws. many many army guys ahah superr funny. as we were about to stand up nd leave, saw some ahbengbengs coming up the escalator. then they stared nd said "cindy.. cindy.." (but there was no response from us) so they also said "natalie.. natalie.." OH MY TIANN. it's fking freaky lah ? =X didn't dare look back at those people. cindy do you know them ? i think they're form coralsec.

went home (: conference with them. but jayne left too fast ! the two NFF called in to jaslyn's fone hahahhah. abit awkward, but fun overall. about 2hrs using hfone -pouts.

ytd. supposedly to go out with shir ? but i have no cash ): pretty saddening. then they said to meet at noon so i went. waited for about 50mins for everyone to come tgt =\ now i know how it feels lyk heh. ate ice cream before leaving for the train down to cityhall. jayne nd i were applying oxycover in the train ! hahhahahah. walked around the link =) i love the shades nd accesories there :O

then off to marina square. geraldine got herself the pretty diamante crown belt ! but i lyk the black one though xD ehehehhehs. then ate at the foodcourt, jaslyn shared with me the belgium chocolate-coated marshmellows -yumyums.

left for suntec city. played the drums nd guitars ! :DD superr fun lah. i even have a video of geraldine nd jaslyn on those guitars hee. we all managed to clear through all three stages HAHAH. shall post it up all one day.

went home after. another tiring day of walking, nd i didn't get anything because im broke =( sighs. didn't realise jaslyn msged for conference again =\ i alrd slept ! dead beat. i woke at 0354AM lol. now i'm wondering about the plans for today. lalas x)

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can u feel it.

2006-05-10T20:41:00.000+08:00

HI MARCUS. hees funny.

monday
met up in the bus hehh. gave them home-made tea eggs ! lalas man x) amath ppr 1 nd sub biology ppr =\ effing hard ! hai. i left many many white blanks ? then to our usual stopover at macs for study tym. it's difficult for me to handle even the basics for pure chemistry, since i've been failing this subject all the way lah. was distracted lyk always, even in the library. i wasn't happy. went home, ~~cried.~~ i'm so useless i don't think i'm good at anything. also thought over what was brought up today. so whatever.

tuesday
late to catch the last bus lol. so geraldine's dad came to the rescue to give us a ride to school (: thanks girl ! gave out tea eggs again (i feel so lao auntie pls) heehee they love it ! emath ppr2 nd pure chemistry ppr2 were done with =\ i calculated about 30 marks gone for emath ? chemistry was even worse. OMGG i didn't do much. depression state ; syy nd jaslyn worried. friends, im so sorry i don't know why. went tuition class with them at 201.

wednesday
today's the 2nd last day of exam period ~phews. had amath ppr2 nd pure chemistry ppr1. amath is lyk hand in or not - doesn't matter at all ? because there are superr many blank pages. BIG SIGH. wth is wrong with me ? even chemistry's mcq i didn't finish. -screamm. i find no use in studying for tmr's last pprs. rarrh ): went to eat with the girls. had our noodles at the foodcourt instead of macs lol. walked alot around the whole ws, super boring place i tell you hahahs. we can even remember the various shops ! hmm, did silly embarrassing stuff lol. after library nd slacking nd eating, walked home tgt (:

tmr's sub physics/biology ppr1 nd MT listening nd then. NO MORE MYE EXAMS WOOHOOO ! i can't wait xDD i need to treat my awful face soon >:( it's getting worse ; pimples popping lyk popcorns all over lah ? haiyo. i need whatever effective creams. give it over mann !

shirleen wrote me a reply letter :DD i love my girl. gave me many advices, shared with me stuffs. you know, we are bestfriends ! we do everything tgt <3 others =")">"Break down nd cry when you miss ___. And after that, you wld be stronger :) really. It's not 'weak' when you cry; it's just another way of becoming stronger."

Well girl, don't need to be sorry. i'm the one instead. i haven't asked about you eh (: i wanna know alrytes. When you want to get your bag huh ? U ah never tell me when ahah. Tk care.

cindy : we're supposed to go out soon tgt lol. but i'm broke lah. i've got so much to catch up with you. my gf, i hope i haven't been distant =X heh.

* ps chener if you ever see this, i would lyk to say : thanks =)

Mind tells me to give up, but heart won't. It never will;
For faint heart grew stronger when apart from my love;
I'm missing you.

i'm all about loving you-

2006-05-07T04:42:00.000+08:00

emath nd geog elective papers are done with. horrendous =\ bahh. my efforts of studying more than 10 hours each have gone to waste. i left 10 marks nd 13 marks respectively, blank-ed.

madd at supermarket with jayne =D we were getting a break from studying on thurs.

// the grouchy garbage monster. she lives in the dustbin ! but now it's too small wahahs.
// the pretty packaging of kit-kat for students ~kitto katsun !

cramps sucks (how random). school ended earlier than usual on friday :DD went ws yet again to study with the usuals. we bought out macs breakfast too ! hees. did pure chemistry reading with jayne while geraldine nd jaslyn did amath. only managed to look through 10 chapters, which i'm not 100% sure of ? -frowns. then we fooled around with cameras nd videos. darn lame lah ? ahhahs. we had sugar biscuits (: high mann.

// it's the sugary biscuity munchy snack. welove !
// toilet mirror lol. geraldine ; jaslyn ; me.

met up again today before noon, but jayne couldn't come >:( macs was crowded. we did some biology reading, having difficulty. my file with ALL MY NOTES are in school :X i haven't attempted my tys either ! but tried those structured questions from the guide book alrd. oh ya we had a madd lower sec boy sitting the next table beside us nd we video-ed him lol. he knows anyway, nd even told us "thanks for finding me so interesting" ; wthh ? ahahah. then had to leave early for dinner with family. hai. supposedly to eat crabs but grandma late lol, so the reservation was taken away -pouts. ate at this other non-airconditioned restaurant instead. 8 dishes no crabs ):

~~it's the thirteenth day.~~

transferring files of songs, pictures nd videos with my hfone. it's gnna be early morning ! ehehehhehs :D tmr's just tuition nd home to study. i don't lykk >:( sighs. my life is effing boring lah. it's the same routine that makes it. is there anything interesting ? :O

`females have a lower basal metabolic rate than males. so unfair ! moreover, males have smaller amt of adipose tissues beneath their skin which makes them lose more heat. that's why guys are much skinnier although they eat alot too :X heehees.

unbreak my heart.

2006-05-03T23:34:00.000+08:00

on the 1st of May was confirmation. woke up pretty early that morning to doll-up (not really lah) nd tried to look my best. waited for marmi to hurry, then daddy drove us to the church but we were late lol. everyone's looking smartly white ? hees. we're now confirmed alrd ! =) nd sureprise surprise : some nyce friends came to see us xD they got us roses ! aww how sweet (it's still in my room). marmi substituted as my 'godma' though. she did many silly stuff that embarrassed me omg. then both of them got to leave so i went lunching with friends :DD had my bibimbap nd banana yoghurt bubble tea ! yummy.

getting ready for churchh (: self-love. oops.

yet another portray. messy table seen as background wahahah.

from left : jayne ; geraldine ; me ; jaslyn (at church) where's syy, kim nd others ? lol.

from left : me ; joanna ; geraldine ; jayne (at tamp mall) jacq nd jaslyn ? heehee.

mirror-oh-mirror. me nd jaslyn. (exclusively hers)

me nd her again. so lalas x)

i love the pretty rose stalk ! thanks girls, esp syy (=

a happy child currently. lols. the end. //editedd.

other photos aren't with me though :X anyhoo, here's the list of stuff spent >:(
- mng skirt $75
- earrings $3.90
- hairclip $3.90
- charles nd keith white heels ~~$33.90~~ ($28.80 after disc.)
* total amt : $111.60

MT2 / EL2 on tuesday. Physics P2 / SS just today. bahh =\ everything's going badd. next week is even more hectic with so many mathematics nd sciences. how can i cope ! hai. bet i've lost a lot of careless marks in the previous papers too. also due to time constraints. sigh sigh sigh. ahahs. tmr's emath nd the day after would be geography. i must gambatte nd do well ! yeah mann.

alrytes till another tym i'll add further. tired out ! haven't even studied ever since i got home. rarrh. who cares for now. tatas nd good nytes. have a good sleep then :DD

wo wu fa fang shou ; shi qu zhe ge ai qing.
ying wei wo de xing hai xiang zhe ni.
xi huan de ren hai shi ni wei yi.

that's hot-

2006-05-01T00:49:00.000+08:00

okayy. i'm very sure everyone's concentrating on studies while i'm online the whole tym >:( i don't feel like taking any exams ? don't feel the stress lah. sigh.

28th april - happy 2nd mth anniversary darling x) nd to mickeypoohie, our 9th mth =) friday was the start of the examination period. had EL1 / MT1 alrd :\ pretty alryte ? supposedly went a little off-point. went home nd changed before meeting them at ws macs to study. hehh, geraldine wore her cookie monster ! hahahs fooled alot doing retarhded things, went home late at 11plus with marmi :) she had dinner with me.

went out with family on saturday early afternoon for tamp metro sales xD bought girl stuff lah. then sister got to change her hfone to 3G >:( so i got her silly nokia ~~6670~~ instead. lalas mann. saw my two juniors in the mall too, heheh. met jaslyn afterwards :DD headed down to town nd got our shopping done. went topshop ! i so loveee there. the tops are prettaye !

then to pacific plaza's ripcurl to use those vouchers. hate those sales people though. got a pair of dumb slippers ($21.90) nd a bright green wallet ($29.90). cheap ahahs. off to fareast to buy our earrings nd food (: back to tamp, she bought her clothes for confirmation. i got my basic mng top. finally home-d, but parents were still out till late. they got me fish n' chips [: yummy.

woke up super late for tuition this morning :X went tamp with jaslyn after it ended. she got her half-jacket nd we had our bubble teas ! ehehehhehs :DD mine's banana yoghurt lah ? quirky. suddenly i went high nd started screaming :O so embarrassing i don't know why lol. must be i was in a wrong state of mind. OH OH ! we had our buns from breadQ nd guess what ? jaslyn made a mess hahah. we bought a red hairclip too ! antic-like.

went home prepared to study. however, i was distracted by chatting :\ then my mum called to fetch me out with the family ? sighs. didn't study for two days alrd. i'm wayy behind from others. alryte so we went to the various starhub shops to suscribe for cable nd all. then rushed to get my confirmation heels (last minute since i just found out my old ones seems to be rusting) so marmi's kind of annoyed. had genki sushi for dinner ! hees. we were the last customer to leave the place. that's all i guess.

tmr's confirmation day. i'm gnna look very awful :'( my dressing is so badd ? nd my face is getting worse. poopsie. so sadd, there wont be many people coming to see us anyway.

i miss ___. how ?
he seems very busy i know. nd i ought to understand.
but i want to see him soon ): it seems 90321484 days to me. hai.

~~don't wanna be a distant figure. am i no longer impt ?~~

hard to say goodbye-

2006-04-26T22:19:00.000+08:00

tuesday
couldnt meet them in tym in the morning. didnt get our yummy taquitos (?) haha! school was pretty fine ? we had to seat accordingly to exam format alrd >:( but not too bad lahh ? cindy's still sitting beside me ahahs. hmms didn't go down for recess mann. stayed in classroom with jaslyn =) she was being very nyce to hear me out ; nd the reverse. sorry to have let you seen the ugly side of me tearing. but thanks for the chocolates ! hee. brought famous amos to share :DD P.E was fun pls ! we played floorball tgt. i feel bad ): vented my anger on the stick nd resulted in my roughness, hitting ppl's legs. surprisingly i never slept in any lessons today :
didn't attend legion meeting. had macs after school with the usual =) yumyum food. at first felt a little sick but got better that's why i decided to join them. we completed our emath graphs ard ! hehh. met into marmi on the way home, she handed me my vouchers =D one thing to keep me happy for now then. BUT ! i went to look at the bill which recently just came :S nd i've exceeded greatly.. imagine my position here : 1445 sms nd all :X shocking yet upset, beaten my previous record hehe. marmi was so weirdly nyce though, she didn't reprimand me AT ALL. felt guilty. got to pay, then couldnt be bothered to study anymore so i slept early (x

wednesday
again. met them in the bus instead ? hahahs. did alot of dumb stuff today in school nd outside :X lol. got to be early tmr ah ! hee okayys. had tuition just now at 201 ? super sleepy o.0 OH THE BUS DRIVER IS EFFING SHITHEAD, eh jaslyn ? hahah. then headed to tamp to change my skirt size nd =) hees. exams nearing very very soon.i don't feel much pressure, so dead.

SARANGHAEYO thislove.
~~my emotions gotten the better of me_~~

eye candies.

2006-04-25T01:44:00.000+08:00

saturday

woke daddy up to give me a ride to church in the early morning :\ nd only that day did i realise that he changed his car ? haha i'm slow. reported nd all with my friends, then went up the buses all the way to jurong where the camp is supposedly held at. we were always at the disadvantage whenever we're the earliest >:( so the usual - guys nd girls seperated dorms lol. we went into the room, stale-smelled place ! lucky one of them brought a spray ahahs. our roommates special, we have 9 girls sleeping in one small room :X had to share bunks. we were then seperated to grps nd i'm with jaslyn, jacq, joanna, natalie, joshua, christopher nd francis this tym round :DD things got boring so we girls played 'truth or dare' (: omgg it's super embarrassing pls. oh had talks nd games all the way till nyte. then the priests gave an interesting talk, a broad topic on --- on various stuff which obviously, turn guys on (?) :\ hahahah. last programme for the day ended with confession nd reflection. tears. with jaslyn nd joanna, we were tgt alone in the chapel ? it's a pretty place you know =)

sunday

tcher kindly helped us purchase chocs nd drinks last nyte before sleep xD ahah. unable to sleep well the whole nyte till about 3am, neither could jaslyn. joanna almost fell on us since we were on the ground ltr on. lols. my snooze alarm wasn't switched off for super many tyms ! hehh, woke everyone up. changed nd washed up for breakfast, clean-ups nd mass. tried to catch a wink but to no avail. on the way back to church in the bus, played double-prank with natalie since we have the same names ! HAHAH. super funny lahh, fel provided us with her fone =D went madd.

martin : .. hello ?
me : (imitating a sexy voice) helloooo martin..
nat : (enthusiastic ) we've been noticing your butt recently.
me : it's HUGGGEEEE.
nat : it's so sexy ! we feel lyk touching it.

benedict : er hello ?
nat : (sounding very pro) hello. is this mr benedict choo ?
ben : er ya .?
nat : this is calling from the OCBC bank, nd we would like you to know that you have an outstanding balance of $5,487. If you do not make payment soon, we would be sueing you.
ben : errrr..
nat : thank you.

lunched with jaslyn at ljs'. met into many ex-sacians ? yupp. got home nd then went out again with marmi, sister nd cousin. let her sign my progress card alrd )= she didn't say much, made me feel effing bad lah ? i went on telling her about confirmation too. then they decided to go townn :] daddy brought us there nd dropped us off outside lucky plaza so we walked down to wisma first. bought famous amos cookies nd yakitoris. topshop's very nyce ! but she didn't like it very much. nor was forever21 appealing to her. went to fareast since sister went to HARU get her haircut while i continue my search of my white confirmation clothes. tried this flare-type dress (?) dont look too bad yet she refused to get it for me lol. in the end i dragged her to MANGO nd finally settled for this $75 long white skirt she liked nd thot that i looked sweet in :S ahahah. i'm now left with the top nd accesories to get. went to look for daddy at his pub so that he'll fetch us home. had sushi for dinner (: yum yumms.

monday
met them in the morning at interchange :D jaslyn lost her bet so she got to do her dare tmr ! heehees. mondays' are the shortest, ended school early. went tamp with cindy till 3pm before she left to meet someone [: lalas. spend a short while at his house before going home. inside the cab, a silly conversation occurred.

driver (after i mumbled my address) : yao jiang hua yu.. deng yi xia uncle ting bu dong..
me : okay okays.
driver : wahh. wei she mo ta mei song ni hui jia ? na ge shi ni de laogong ah ?
me : huh.. orh mei you. bu shi lahh hahahs.
driver : bu shi laogong shi ni de xiao di meh ? na li ke neng shi. haha..
me : (lol)
driver : ta hai hui na yu shan bang ni gai yu lehh. bu shi laogong shi sui ?
me : =)

walked a while in the rain. had thoughts in my head. i kept thinking about many stuff ? i'm sad. very sad nd depressed lah. don't know really why nd i don't know what i should do. i'm a stupid girl. i have no future for sure. i wanna scream it all out. but no, i will keep to myself. i'll still smile, though it may be weak. being alone in my room. i'm hurt. -broke down.

~~it's miserable to know that the truth always hurts.~~

give it up-

2006-04-21T22:30:00.000+08:00

there's this partial feeling in me that says :
you've just let go of a moment of chance so easily without effort.
this chance which could be much better.

i kind of regret whatever i do. most of the tyms.
sighs sighs sighs.
=) okayy forget it lah naat ! move on girl - that's what i'd do.

had macs after lessons with jaslyn nd geraldine :DD yummy yums. there'd be camp retreat from tmr to sunday afternoon all the way at JURONG hahah >:( effing bad pls. i have no more tym to study alrd. sheesh !

pick me the star.

2006-04-21T01:04:00.000+08:00

it's a friday morning ! ahahs. i'm still awake :\ music always replaying : shan hu hai & feng. can't do my homeworks since i've left them in school. dumbdumbs. shall msg darling soon.

monday passed quickly (: ISOLOVE mondays. went ws nd met with jaslyn, jayne nd melody. we ate nd did pure chemistry hwork only >:( jayne nd melody left earlier, leaving the both of us by ourselves. then HAHAH. there were these 3 guys who purposely sat beside our table nd crapped nonsense ? but funny lah. lol the guy even said 'bye'. hahahh.

didn't go for legion meeting on tuesday so went to darling's house x) hees. nd wednesday was out at tamp HAN'S snacking nd studying with shir (: we had quite a nyce tym there ? but food were so-very-tempting pls ! lucky we managed to ignore. anyhoo, it's cindy's 1st mth with her guy ! hehh, happy anniversary, girlfriend

thursday was hectic ? 3 different sciences again. nd i detest p.chem nd biology >:O i don't understand much ! what's with the tchers nd their weirdd method of teaching ? i was even half-sleeping during the lessons. reminding us that we have 4 days to study during weekend does not include me nd jaslyn alryte ? WE HAVE THIS SILLY CAMP RETREAT FOR 2 DAYS. there isn't much tym for us to study, sighs. rained in the afternoon, we went to our usual ws macs =) lots of homework to hand in today as well, but my stuff are all left in sch :X i'm gnna be shit ahahs.

these few days have been quite badd ya ? ~~my ex~~ so randomly msged but i never replied -im totally put off by ~~him~~. yucks. then i might have made ____ think wrongly. ____ doesn't seem to realise that i'm alrd attached ? ahaha. ____ is a ----- ------- lol. ____ is nyce actually. but i won't be a two-timer bytch as to go with ____. i don't even know ____ pls. so ben ah, this is to let you know kaes ? hehs

marmi was nyce to me today ? surprisingly awkward de. anyhoo, i haven't shown her the progress card so yeahh. lol ! she will be super blackface after that. so i'm like in deep thoughts now ? there's so little tym, so much to do. unsure which subject to start revising. unsure of my study plans. unsure whether marmi would still get for me my confirmation white dress. unsure if my hfone bills may get me into trouble. unsure.. FORGET IT MANN. i'll just die =(

meeting them in the early morning ltr :DD OH. realised we've been having macs for so many many days alrd ! hahas. shakerfries are just effing nyce [: yum yumms. hmm gnna grab some snack from 7eleven soon.

choices.

2006-04-16T22:45:00.000+08:00

HAPPY EASTER :) !

late for church nd goodness me, it was superr crowded lah ? everyone pushed lyk nobody's business >:( then we went for amath tuition, after which we (jaslyn, chu wen, vanessa, me) headed to the malls while syy went home to sleep. tried to find nyce white clothes for 1st May's confirmation but there wasnt any suitable there ? i'm gnna try bugis nd fareast ! hees. so we ate at ljs nd walked around as well. shir called me nd she was at tm too ahahs. wonder how she's doing.

was raining heavily alrd though. but went to darling's house again :DD his family was at home too. watched teevee ! if i got home instead, don't think i woud have the mood to watch anything :\ okay my dressing was abit out-of-hand today i suppose ? hard tym lol. ~~esp with my fats~~ :X he sent me home after that. hahahs i miss him =)

haven't completed my homeworks due tmr :O i've been a lazy piggie lately. HAHA. oh wells this is natalie u see.

just the girl.

2006-04-15T23:08:00.000+08:00

cause she's bittersweet ~

woke up ltr than expected ? ahahs prepared nd all to go to darling's house. he was still so sleepy haha ! piggie :X so we slept for awhile. then left at noon to go studying with shir at tamp =)

OMGG I HAD A PERVERT STANDING BESIDE ME IN THE CROWDED SBS BUS ?! i had a hard tym can. he kept trying to touch me x( super sicko bastardd. molester lahh. when the bus turned or jerk, he purposely moved his arm near me. then so his hand would briskly rub past my butt/thigh lah ? goodness me i felt disgusted nd shocked. i had to stare at him with the "what the hell you doing" look, but he didn't seem to care. then when he saw me looking at the empty sit, he went to sit first, so i went to the back of the bus instead. but when he got down the stop before mine, he turned around to look into the bus straight at me ! EEEYER. he's spotted as a middle-age guy, having keys hooked out in the middle of his butt, carrying an old nd black briefcase nd white plastic bag. be careful ppl :S

bumped into jaslyn nd geraldine at tm too. we three brought along our KAPPA bags ? -smiles. then left to eat yoshinoya for lunch with shir, yumyums ! oh we had a very long chat tgt hahas. spent the next few hours at HAN'S with out cake nd tart too ! took super funny videos :DD ehehehhehs. even at macs ! shaker fries are effing good pls [: HOT STUFF. thanks girl for the wonderful tym out today ! it isn't black for once alryte ? =D oh wells you know what, i only 'attempted' to do emath ppr 2 nd read half of biology guide. lol !

came home early nd family was alrd at home. then marmi totally didn't see me walk in the house at all ! wth mann. until i went out of the room to the toilet just now, she scolded me for coming home ltr than that ? she's madd pls. totally weird woman ): make me so upset only.

anyhoo, i still love ben (: hahas. many many.

kisskiss-

2006-04-14T23:45:00.000+08:00

thursday

the air stewardess living in my block is so charming pls ? hahah my mood gotten better that morning after she smiled at me :DD my heart melted at that spot i tell you. lol ! school's pretty normal except when mr tan yelled at us :\ he's becoming worse hahas. then jayne, geraldine nd i ate at MACS nd HAN'S after school. i'm a fatfatty heh.

today

went for church service with jaslyn this noon. was so different, nd weird ! right jaslyn ? hahahs. bought corn milk drinks nd our soon kueys ! yum yumms. met up with geraldine nd jayne at ws. oh we were busy cutting each others hair in the toilet lah ? HAHA. such an experience xD but aww. my hairs damaged alrd. then went to tamp nd bought our nyce bags ! the germany nd brazil ones. for once a strike off my list (: we are happy child(s) for now heehees. OH IM BROKE. ride down to compass point for study tym ! ate alot of bread from breadtalk nd four leaves :X the carbohydrates intake as excess will turn to fats lahh. i miss shaker fries though - the hott thing :DD ahah.

looking stupid carrying such a BIG plastic bag nd 3 heavy bottles of coke light at all tyms :X goodness gracious it's madness pls.

meeting darling tmr morning at his home ! hees. it's been awhile alrd. then studying with shir during the afternoon till evening =) hope my plans won't be out-ruined by my mother ? she kept nagging at me urghs. i'm annoyed for the fact that my room's taken up today by two relatives tonight ): I WANT MY ROOM LAH hmpfs.

MOMO : marmi i love you ! hahahs don't be so saddened okays. smile ! (:
GOGO : it's always fun t have ur company girl ! hehes. tk care alrytes. nd go t the esplanade again soon =)

push the button x

2006-04-12T20:49:00.000+08:00

didn't go to the warehouse sale with sister on sunday since she said it was pathetic ? ahahs. went for church nd tuition, then met up with shir for lunch at HAN'S before going for geog prog meetup with jaslyn, geraldine, beefy nd jayne (: the esplanade is such a huge place that i almost got lost haha. unfortunately, we couldnt stay long in the library as they forbid the use of scissors. lol ? we decided to settle at the open area instead. nd supposedly a good thing ! hehs. many talented dancers were having their individual or group practises. OMG. it was darnn nyce pls :DD I LOVE DANCE ! we were dumbfounded nd attracted by a particular group that were so close to us. lol. by around 2200 late at nyte, jaslyn geraldine nd i went to tamp macs for a quickie before heading home.

it would be so lovely to spend tym with a loved one, just walking around the esplanade tgt (: nd there'd be many chocolate shopps too ! sweet.

i wasted money for cab fare on a monday morning hai. went to tamp with shir after school nd spent even more on prints, eyebrow shaping nd food ! oh my tiann hahahs. but we had a good tym tgt anw. took weight yesterday during P.E :X im becoming a serious fatfat ! sighs. then again tamp after school, this tym with geraldine, jaslyn nd jayne. quite embarrassing ?! they dragged me into gio :X darling was inside, i have no more face. lOl. then we went to see the bowling bags at isetan (= prettaye ! ahah. planned to get them tgt ehehehhehs. so you know, A NEED TO SAVE YET ONCE MORE * oh we ate at pastamania too ! yumyumms. after which they bought new shoes before headingto ws macs nd home.

had pft 5 items today afternoon :\ 2.4km run results out too, i'm kind of lousy alrd.
- 2.4km run (33rd position in lvl ; 13:39) A
- sit-nd-reach (48cm ; 49cm) A
- incline pull-ups (18 tyms) A
- shuttle runs (13:48s ; 11.3s) A
- sit-ups (41 tyms) A
- standing broad jump (150cm ; 171cm) B/C

friends. this is how they treat you, being hypocrites nd bitching behind your back. i guess you're still the same self. i was so foolish enough to always be nyce to you three especially. but now, what the hell ? i don't feel lyk saying much anyway. shut up nd get lost. sometyms, your sights just ~~peeves me off~~.

so sadd. ): today wasnt really a nyce day for me ya ? its hateful nd blackk. thanks to jaslyn, jayne, shir nd jon for making me quite smiley though (: haha. jayne, melody, jaslyn nd i went ws macs after it all ended. just read my notebooks nd talked crap all the way. ND WE ATE LYK PIGGIE ! haha, right jaslyn ? :X oh yes, must improve our singing abilities as well lol ! cannot let geraldine & jayne win us ah. hee.

fling-

2006-04-08T21:21:00.000+08:00

daddy didn't want to go to church with me because he knew it was gnna bore him >:( frowns. hahah. he just drove me there nd left me to my friends. i was so very late ! then they embarrassed me. OH MY TIANN. almost everyone turned to the back of the room to look at me as i went forward :X the talks. the sharings. the breaks. everything ended by about 5 ? then jaslyn, chu wen nd me went to tamp ! hees.

waved at patricia at giokids :DD hehes the pretty ladyy. nd saw my darling as well ! (: then we went to grab some food nd walk a short while, after which they had to leave alrd. so i walked by myself :\ it wasn't that bad u know. hmms. got denyse something since i found it prettaye ahahs. there was this huge sale at mini toons too ? all the kiasu aunties were trying to get good deals lol. typical of them. then met with darling for awhile during his break. i miss him so very muchh haha. but tym passed fast.

proj will be done tmr i guess ? but i have other planned schedules as well :\ sister needs me. shirleen needs me. i need myself back ): sighs.

im falling in love with these songs : JJ's hui you na me yi tian ; Delta Goodrem's lost w/o you ; Wang Li Hom's kiss goodbye.

IM LOST WITHOUT YOU.

2006-04-08T13:11:00.000+08:00

it's been a week alrd. seemed lyk 8243597612 days lOl.

oh found this from beefy's blog ! was just browsing through blogs u see =D quite interesting.

October 16 - 27 ~ Turtle
If you are a Turtle: You are near to perfect and nice at heart. The examples of your kindness are always circulated in groups of people. You, too, love peace. You wouldn't like to retaliate even to a person who is in the wrong. You are loved due to this. You do not wish to talk behind one's back. People love the way you always treat them. You can give, give and give love, and the best part is that you do not expect it back in return. You are generous enough. Seeing things in a practical light is what remains the best trait of you guys.

last sunday i was out with darling after church nd tuition :DD met into girlfriend ! cindy was busy with ahem lol. then went to watch ben nd kw play pool. after that they met the others :\ da ge wasnt wearing black ! hohos. all guys :X so it was quite awkward i guess ? so he sent me home. hahas.

gave my juniors their swirly lollipops on monday since sec4s need not go for cca alrd. hoped they lyk it yeah =) then went off to study with cindy at macs. tuesday was legion meeting as usual. more nd more juniors makes the place livelier ? ahah. then went to study with jaslyn nd geraldine on wednesday evening till late. doodled on jaslyn's writing pad ! heehees fow fun eh, geraldine ? *beams. physics lessons in the lab with kim on thurs was fun pls ! fooled with the magnets hohos. had another tym of studying of amath nd planning of geog proj on thurs afternoon till late with jaslyn, geraldine, jayne. cindy joined us ltr (: but somehow ytd, dodo mr tan postponed the test.

had my MT orals nd 2.4km run done with. i feel quite relieved now (: esp the run which was just ytd ? thought i'd do the worse, but wasnt too bad in the end lahh. still the top 10 in class hee. then went to tamp with shir for some walks with our bubble teas ! met into sacians too. maybe shouldnt have drank ice cold drinks ? had darn bad cramps ah. sigh. OH YES. we saw prettaye earrings nd all. sweet ! did i mention this. on our way to the interchange, we tried to speak the ahlian language ! HAHAH super funny pls. it's lyk they only use it for msgs but not say it in real life ? hohos so retarhded xP

shir i lubb you worxXz ! lubb staR worRxXz (star wars lol ?!)

gnna go church with daddy ltr ! some parent talks for confirmation preparation supposedly :Z eeyer. don't lyk hahah. oh how about our proj meeting today ..? gosh.

bottled glitter.

2006-04-01T21:09:00.000+08:00

so many many tests the past week >:( i don't think i'm gnna do well. sighs. need to complete my homeworks too. i brought home all my thick, bulky textbooks home on friday as well ! last band practise we had tgt. took some pictures shown below (some i look ~~weird~~ so i didn't upload lol) ! you can view it bigger by clicking on the image, then magnify again HAHA. anyhoos, there was pop (passing out parade) on friday evening (: nd OMGG ! we're all promoted hehs. but im only a sergant :\ not staff sergant. saddening but nvm lahh. a surprise our fhorn section got the 'best section' award. hahas i'm proud for all of us. we must go for our section outing soon alrytes ? spend the $60 haagen daaz voucher ! yum yums :DD

// top from left : lydia carina me fiona clarissa bottom from left : cheryl rebecca samantha.
// pointing ! lols.
// from left : fiona rebecca me cheryl with our fhorns [:
// seniors after pop (passing out parade) but sam's missing ! we with our yumyum voucher xD
// where's sec1s ? hahahs. see MY FATS :\ we're happy section !

HAPPY APRIL FOOL'S DAY !

oh my tiann. i got fooled by people today ahahs. i'm so gullible :X it's like first thing in the morning i was woken up by da ge's sms nd i got a shock ? fancy that lol. the two juniors, lydia nd carina pranked me too ! oh my. then we had quite a long conference chat thru the fone with them laughing all the tym (: oh wells. hmm, got angry with my marmi too ! hmpfs. firstly, complaining about me using my fone. after that, she dragged the tym nd in the end, i couldnt go out as planned >:( hai.

tmr. i'm unsure yet ): i have churchh nd tuition. then i wanna go shopping. but there are other plans as well ? gf. darling. nd marmi says to collect my stuff tmr. goodness lahh. i have no idea which. schedules so packed. rarrrh.

I MISS BEN. HOW ? hahahah. :Z

the story of a girl.

2006-03-28T22:53:00.000+08:00

have been taking a cab down to school to make sure i was on tym :X wasted my own money only. but today was different since cindy met me again nd we went to sch tgt by a taxi as it was already late lol. OH teachers are all going mad ! they give super many homeworks nd tests that we don't have tym for self-study ? then they complain. @%$#!*&.

HAPPY ONE MONTH ANNIVASARY DARLINGG !

hmm ended sch slightly earlier (: went home to change nd waited. 5.45pm to 6.50pm around there ? i thought he'd change his mind ! :X so i went out of the house thinking that maybe i could sit at ws macs study first. how dumb can i get hahas. darling called nd said to meet at downtown :DD we went walkwalk down to the park again ! i like that place alot. we had a lovely lovely time ya !

__ beniloveyou`

it's our secret-

2006-03-26T20:01:00.000+08:00

many tests the past week :\ but i 'ponned' school on thursday (the day with 3 sciences in a row) HAHA ! in the morning, there were no buses nor taxis, nd no tym to waste alrd. i got drenched in the rain too ): marmi asked me to go home instead of attending school. anyhoo, if i went school, i'd get suspension alrd lol. oh the maid couldn't find me at the bus stop so i went home myself. then oh my tiann ! i had a very bad stomach upset which was scary >:( then later on for the whole day, i did my textbook-reading according to the different subjects lol (xcept eng nd recess) the rest of the tym i was sleeping or msging :X so i thought maybe i should go out to study ? i went ws macs for awhile. did my reading of notes for bio only, how dumb pls. then decided to go tamp to see darling ! met into gw da ge =) hahahs. so we went tgt nd went home after that. conferenced with jaslyn, jayne nd geraldine about our CME proj. i feel bad not contributing lah ? sigh.

friday tiffany told me that she had mc for the previous day ! nd WE HAD THE SAME PROBLEM which is quite freaky. oh mann, i had no mc for my case. marmi said there was no need to, she'd write a letter for me :X but you know what i fear now. tiffany shared with me about this, im so scared i'd die soon. i don't want to have cancer *cryy. okay enough, i don't want too many ppl to know. hmmm.

skipped cca to go home nd repack camp stuffs, as well as change my uniform nd take out my books. had LOM camp from evening till saturday morning. quite tiring ? (actually its VERY) had to clean up most of the tym for the juniors after games nd food :\ saddening. then went for curia meeting tgt at this church. our school girls kept making up funny talks nd laugh ? effing funny stuffs, esp the sharings by the brother. went home with alena. rushed to meet darling after that at 7 going 8 at nyte =S wahahah. although marmi interrogated me quite a handful of info, she allowed me out at last with a later curfew =) but aww, tym passed fast eh ? finally gave da ge his lil gift (i hope he doesnt mind ba). LOL so paiseh ! lazed in the room instead. went home soon after, darling sent me home :DD yays.

too tired ? woke up late this morning >.< rushed for church class but to no avail. so only attended mass with them. then we headed to 201 as usual for tuition, hahah. syy nd i went tamp pastamania to eat lunch tgt ! it's been a long while xDD then met darling during his break (: we just slacked around, feeling tired nd all :\ I WANT TO SLEEP AH. lol. silly boy kept trying to pokee me ! meanie heh. went home earlier than usual since i didn't meet up with cindy, as marmi wants me back home earlier. i haven't done my homeworks too. HAHA.

____ 28th march is coming ! withlove.
shir dont worry i'll celebrate with u in school kaes ? haha. mickeypoohie forever.

PART OF A CONVERSATION

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- natalie ; __ says:
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- natalie ; __ says:
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- natalie ; __ says:
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- natalie ; __ says:
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- natalie ; __ says:
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- natalie ; __ says:
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// * LOL !

champagne red roses.

2006-03-20T18:59:00.000+08:00

HAPPY SWEET 16 TO DENYSE ON 180306 =D woke up late. packed my room on the saturday noon ! still, it's very unkempt :\ i need more hangers for my wardrobe too. didn't go out the whole day ? kind of boring stucked at home. too lazy to even look at my incompleted homeworks mann.

sunday morning darling walked me to church (: hees. for class, we each had to do this "letter to the Archbishop" thing ? D-U-M-B. hahahah lyk he has the tym to read every single one. nd my awfully terrible, slanted handwriting ! so embarrassing lol. mass with the others after that. then amath tuition at 201 nd off to tamp mall. cindy nd i met for lunch at ljs :DD yummy yums. coincidentally, my family came up too ? but they ate at parkway alrd with some other relatives. marmi called to go home tgt ltr but i went off to meet darling instead ? (oh i realised syy nd jaslyn saw us as they were in swensens :X) so in the end, i went home myself HAHA. had dinner with family - nasi lemak nd otahs (caused me to have terrible stomaches till today).

then marmi had a conversation with me :S
she said "why buy another bag again. fake one ah ?"
darn she knew !
so i replied "ya. of course fake ! real one so ex i got no money buy"
ahahs taken back by my words, she answered "fake then still buy.."
while walking away. then out of the blue ltr, she passed me this SALVATORE FERRAGAMO packaged box ?! omg. something inside. told me that she bought it for me, it was MINE ! HAHA. oh fine, a small dumb (pink nd vanilla) orchidea nd magnolia coloured sling but guess how much. $509.00 !! :X US$305.00 !! SO LALAS MAN.

OH ! cindy ah cindy i spotted you.. tsk tsk -nudge. xP

today's pretty normal ? school-ed. geraldine (adopted dotter), jaslyn (marmi) nd i tried to disturb mr tan's teaching during amath with our new furry hairclip ! LOL. then he picked on jaslyn : "jaslyn, since when did mould start to grow on your head ?" hahahs so mean right. alena suddenly popped me with a gift from new zealand ! so sweet heh. then supposed to go to st pats concert now but some irresponsible person * delayed our tickets so we couldn't make it. it's not our fault lahh ? nd * said "selfish people.. thanks for your support" like wtf ? who is the one that caused all this unwanted trouble nd wasted so much precious time ? i really wanted to go pls. make me effing mad only. even chokky also told me to ignore.

now i'm home slightly earlier ? gnna get things on with studying -nerdd. ehehehhehs xDD need to finish up homework nd there's physics test to study for tmr. bummer. silly me shouldnt be online too often i guess ! lalas.

it's a funny thing to view her blog again so randomly ? not too bad. i never knew our birthdates were so close ! oh myy. then once again, memories rushed back. how i really miss those tyms when lovely lovely people were still in our school (:

it's him nd him nd him. actually it's more than them, those eyecandies. i often think back. why things all turned out this way ? maybe i'm really a difficult person to really understand nd handle. too complex.

then. if only we could turn back tym. but would i still have the same courage ? will i still portray myself as the same person i used to be before, standing right infront of these people who were once so very impt in my life ?

i guess not.

if it wasn't for you-

2006-03-17T21:49:00.000+08:00

met up with theDIRECTIONS (excluding beefy) for proj work at simei during the afternoon. it's almost done i guess ? hahas. then jaslyn, geraldine nd i went to tamp mall since they were getting their pretty billabong bags (: then ate at cs foodcourt since we were tempted from greediness ehehehhehs. yum yums ! got my "mee hoon kuay" ; homemade noodles lol. next tym round, we shall have mini chocolate fondue from haagen-daaz ya !

walked ard nd all ? bumped into li-en :DD then we bought coconut drinks at the pasar malam on the way to the bus interchange. it's super funny ! hahaha. i was enjoying mine, whereas jaslyn got the coconut that has no edible 'flesh'. it was hard like a rock, just like what i had a few days before from another stall. then the uncle said it's because she didn't ask for a pretty coconut ? LOL. so both of them shared a second coconut =) oh we attracted quite a number of people to buy coconuts from his stall too eh ? heh.

went home after that. chatted online with some friends nd was on the fone with jon. kind of frustrating having so many msn convos popping here nd there ? ahah oh mann. i remember the conversation with geraldine, jaslyn nd jayne ! hahah we were trying to type like ah lians, but was too difficult "wOrRxXZ" ahahahah.

had morning studying by doing homeworks of physics nd amath with some help from jon. then waited for shir at macs while i had my chocolate sundae (: darling ltr came to sit for awhile too. hees. but i felt bad, because i didn't know what to talk about >:( sigh. then my girl nd i had some personal talks tgt ? even on the train ride all the way till bugis :\ she's such a sweetie ! poor girl with many situations to handle. hmms.

oh i bought a green bag ! ahah. nd next week me nd her gnna get our brown nd grey one too xDD aiyo so many bags ah. i've burnt a hole in my pockett arld ! (nd mum nagged) lalas man. but we had a fairly good tym shopping eh ? lols. we each got a cute yummycake earring too ! then she got this prettaye beaded necklace ((: yeah, then ate some sushis nd snacks before heading back.

she went off first to bedok while i went to find darling for a short while. then i bought bk snack nd went home :X pretty boring lah ? hahs.

darling * imissyou. ahahs you make me smile =) always.
shir * you can feel free to share anything with me, anytym nd anywhere ya ! don't think too much.
jon * thanks brother for your help today ! haha.

with a tinch of magic.

2006-03-15T21:48:00.000+08:00

went cindy's place ytd after school nd get stuff. then we headed down to downtown for the chalet. ben brougt us in from the entrace heh. felt kind of out of place ? lol. not too bad lahh. the music was loud ! gw da ge was funny, fooling around haha. i want to see those smoke 'O's again, how cool. anyhoo, we walked around, ate some food nd talked. bbqing skills of hw nd kw - not bad ! (: that's all.

ben, believe me okay ? i really didn't smoke ya ): don't be so sad or angry.
nd don't worry ! i won't think too much. im just confused over some probs, but will be okay de. must be happy alrytes -hugs. lovelove.

today met up with cindy for school's extra lessons ? haha we were late for 15 mins or so. lucky thing was that tcher didn't collect the work i havent done =) heh. then she let us off 30 mins earlier so we went to prata shop ! yummy yum yums lol. rushed back for next 2hrs of amath lesson, after which i had to go meet ms raju to talk about some plan for the sec1s ? so much stuff to do -shakehead-. then cindy nd i went to tamp but decided to go ws macs instead. stupid china people, how rude can they get. it doesnt pay to be nyce to them at all. (we're only slightly racist hahahs) did some work nd ate lol :X i bought us an ice cream each nd then went home. boring aye ?

chatting with lydia (junior), jaslyn (marmi) nd jon (brother).

they said i'm pretty. wow. :X
a very sweet compliment ya
(but embarrassing because i'm not haha).
this year, i received 12 of those compliments by ppl
(if i'm not wrong) haiyo.
ps : dont say alrd wait i have no more "face" lol.
i can bang my head on the wall nd hide.

i am a meaty lobster! says:
i dun wanna see my dotter so depressed
- natalie ; __ says:
lol
- natalie ; __ says:
i wanna see my marmi happy too
i am a meaty lobster! says:
haha

jaslyn my marmi shared some advices hahah. she's so thotful. jon is a super nyce brother ! ahahs. he listened to what i rattled on nd on lyk nobody's business. woahh man. hmmm jon, hurry find a day then we go out study soon kae ? (: help me out where possible if you don't mind.

hahah i have 583 testim0s but i'm wanting more pls ! heehee. so people out there, be nyce nd write me one yeap ? thank you. hahahahs.

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oh my tiann ! my sister is fucking contradicting me. first she's being nyce to lend me her magazines nd bake me cookies nd all. next minute she's all fessed up nd shouting lyk a screwed person. sheesh.
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strawberry smiles-

2006-03-13T22:42:00.000+08:00

after weeks of 0 updates, i'm back ! ehehehhehs :DD

280206 ;
me nd my girl's annivasary, happy 8th months ! (: went out tgt in the noon ahahs. there was this pretty brown miniskirt i so like from hula & co. xDD shirleen says it's nyce too ? but not within budget lols. then ltr evening till nyte, met ben at tamp. haha yeah, today is OUR DAY. "wo men de kai shi.." hahahs. cheesecake was yummy nd fun ! darling iverymuchlove (:

040306 ;
went to his house for awhile =) its neat ! haha. then to tamp macs see cindy nd felchy since they had cip. who knows, met into other girls ltr on ? :X lol. ben is nyce, help to 'dongdong' donation :P had our first movie at marina square nd who knows - its row 'A' LOL.

110306 ;
sentosa with marmi jaslyn ! it was quite fun lahh ? everything was perfectly fine until 2 small girls came to 'disturb' us nd my voodoo beachball. then so we had to shift to another spot for sun-tanning lol. there were guys surfboarding, nd one of them named alex, who waved at us nd all ? HAHA. stupid fellas tried to surf right past us ? oh. jaslyn nd i became sunburnt at the end of the day :\ hmmms.

[edit]
yeah i better talk about my girlfriend too (wait she'd get jealous or angry lol). we went jogging tgt on one nyte, nd had late walk on another occasion to get food after 11pm. wanted to bump into any policeman but to no avail ? LOL. madness ah. studied at macs nd had nyce chats. our parents are quite alike eh ? those silly matters.

lucky charm.

2006-02-27T19:13:00.000+08:00

[edit]
oh. my. goodness. i just saw what that guy could eat. it looks lyk a mountain of rice nd a big bowl of soup (of course with other servings of dishes too) then what am i going to eat ltr ? HAHAHAH ! i'm a meanie i guess xP but my sister was shocked when she saw it too. oh wells.
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HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY CASXN ! <33

i was on tym to school today. hahahs. lessons were as normal. at break, shir helped me get food up to class as i had to complete my english speech, which in the end. ms lim ~~didn't collect~~ sheesh. anyhoo, emath seems interesting too me now. aye cindy ? lol. lonely 2 periods of MT at the last, jayne went off for netball match.

had to move instruments back to band room. then amath tutorial was so boring ? i fell asleep a few tyms :X that mr christopher didn't really have the hang of teaching us 4.8ers (the so-called 2nd best class lol) ? he's having us for 5 weeks ah ! hmmm. teaching skills not effective.

went home with shir after her 'busy' chat on the hfone, nd my 'busy' work with the decorations for tmr. we had nyce chocolate ice-cream too (:

gosh i miss that tym out tgt. hee =)

its all about us.

2006-02-26T01:07:00.000+08:00

friday 2402
chatted on the hfone till 0430 around there. reached sch at 0750 - latest student. wahahah. sister rita call my mum up then she explain. but i still got that referral form, urgh. haha ! everyone were surprised when i step into the classroom, even the tcher. too tired out last nyte ? heh. band girls left class early ltr.

the big day of the concert (: makeups. rehearsals. smiles. thoughts. it went well ? i'm so glad because we played our parts well -relieve in that sense. JDH showed a 'thumbs up' sign at our direction. our efforts paid off ! nd the best was when SIR CAME TO SEE US ? omgg. we happily cried for that moment (kind of embarrassing. i still remember the scene) how we miss him so. cheryl gave me a pretty pink rose i lyk ! parents fetched me home after everything's over ehehehhehs. alrd close to midnyte.

"faith nd fear don't mix-"

saturday 2502
woke up around 1415 ? lol. too tired ytd nyte that's why. then lazed arount till 1640 to prepare myself (: hees. then got called up nd went off to bugis. had a nyce tym with him ? walk nd walk nd walk HAHA. prints. food. so effing cute ! :DD then train home. back at 2210 lidat, but mum still not home lo ? aiyo make me rush only ahahs. but then had to go to macs buy fries nd burger for sister nd cousin. lalas man.

today 2602
now is 0127 i haven't sleep ! haha. ltr have to go church class then got tuition too :\ ahhhh. OH YAY ! studying with cindy (girlfriend) too [: nd i have to go back to renovating house again to help out ? sighs. we'll see about it ? till then.

_would my someone help me get a cute plushy from arcades by himself ?
treat me to sweet stuff ?
buy me little gifts nd all ?
nd care to get me prettaye roses too ?
i would love. hahah. forget it.

cut my wrist to bleed-

2006-02-21T20:46:00.000+08:00

OMFG. my pimple wont get away lahh ? sighs.

was late again for church last sunday hehh. so i only had mass nd tuition (: went to tamp with syy to eat ajisen ramen yummy ! very spicy hees. -thumbs up. sent syy to her bus stop nd wait for her bus with her. mum wants me to see the renovating house so they fetched me over after that. it's pretty nyce with the platform nd big wardrobe :DD i'm liking my new room ! then we went over ps to see furnitures too ? ate at ya kun nd this shop at bugis. lalas man eat so much (x

ytd was MT prelim for mid-yr ? i hope i do well, no flunking. super difficult pls >:( then bio lesson nd cca. so effing fuck. we had to do duty again ! lyk wth always pick on my section. hmpfs. forget it. had dinner with karen nd shir at sumo's when it ended. yumm mmms ! met up with mum to go back to the house again to discuss with the designer. reached home late nd tired. gosh i even had homeworks lahh ?

that explains why i was late to school today nd couldn't escape. 4th tym alrd :\ had spot checks - i hid my hfone under my skirt ! lol. i felt guilty so i let the prefect confiscate my buffer nd powder instead ? hees. attire checks - nails. earrings. urgh. had to do my plan during recess nd after school. sheesh. rtc was packed with students today hahahahs FULL HOUSE ! quite fun eh. but person-in-charge kind of a ~~meanie~~ :X hmm.

legion meeting today till late, then went home alone lyk most of the tyms ): took the train home but stopped at lavender for 33 mins or so ! haha because a friend surprisingly called nd we chatted for a while hees. oh there was this security guard who kept patrolling around me because i was wandering up nd down the platform with a hfone LOL.

OH. today sister nd cousin just notified me of this news they heard on tv. the one on the contact lense solution ? IM AFRAID ! i'm lyk using that brand ryte now lahh. -prays. better throw away fast.

i'm in a dilemma nd stress ? sighs. problems lead to more problems.

matching chemistry.

2006-02-17T21:03:00.000+08:00

150206
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CARMEN =)

off to town in the evening. met my mum there at HARU scene nd i had a fringey trim lol. then jojo, the hairdresser, styled it up abit (but the next morning i washed my hair alrd). bought carmen's little present from taka (: i hope she liked it eh ? 'kisskiss' ahahs. then had a quick shopp at forever21, we each got a top ! though mine is simply plain. hees.

160206
i didn't know there was band performance for assembly in the morning :X how retarhded can things get ? heh. few of the lower secondary students kept cheering lyk mad monkeys. school was boring till it makes me wanna fall asleep. whats with some friends anyway ? forget it. oh for 'sop' we had to evacuate to the field under the blazing hot sun. lalas man. after eng tutorials was band practice. JDH pressurized fhorn section ): while thinking about life, i was almost on the verge to cry on my way home. that can explain why i was effing quiet in the bus towards my friends. sighs.

"no one understands me better than myself"
i went to indulge in sweets nd chocolates. then go to sleep without completing the homeworks for tmr. how ~~lovely~~.

170206
left classes earlier by 4 periods ! woohoo. got to skip the geography test as well as social studies. we had concert rehearsals at VCH with the other cca groups. though to my dismay that the area was pretty small as compared to the esplanade (duh), but i'm very impressed with the acoustics :DD ehehehhehs. gosh it's worrying tym now though. what if i can't play well on that day ? ahh.

went home after that. my life is just so repeatedly boring nd clueless ? i better get going then. tatas.

love is in the air-

2006-02-14T19:57:00.000+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S PEOPLE !
nd happy 1st mth to us hunns <3

was late to school (third tym lol) nd went to rtc, but i didn't return back there during break ahah. everyone was busy sorting things out in class ! how lovely. thanks sweeties for the little gifts received !

prettaye shot ! * sadly a balloon burst, another deflated nd i ate some food away :X

_ the playboy bracelet from jaslyn nd chuwen.
_ the pretty necklace from geraldine.
_ the nyce stickynotepad from joanne.
_ the heart balloon nd pen from jayne.
_ the green strawheart from genevieve.
_ the mini heart balloon nd message bottle from shir.
_ the lipbalm nd sweet from chantel.
_ the small toy sunflower from cindy.
_ the toy rose from syy.
_ the powerpuff notepad nd message card from jeanette.
_ the crayon candle from carmen.
_ the blue strawheart from samantha.
_ the cookie from sheryl.
_ the wafer from felicia.
_ the gummies from ophelia.
_ the pencil from sam kee.
_ the time-out from betilda.
_ the goodiebag from victoria.
_ the home-made brownie from mell.
_ the chocolate-cookies from kelsey.
_ the goodies from tiffany.
_ the goodiebag from fiona (senior).
_ the home-made chocolates from clarissa (junior).
_ the goodiebag from cheryl.
_ nd many other candies from people which i alrd ate. LOL !

then many japanese girls from our 'sister school' at japan came down [: they are so kawaii nehs ! nd many of them looked mature nd pretty. we got to take pictures with them since they entered our class ahahs. (nd we've learnt some hand poses from them too lol) aynn beefy nd me skipped physics. we performed for band during assembly to the upper sec nd the japanese girls. lalas man !

then went for legion meeting awhile before going to tamp with cindy (yeahh gf !) we walked around the whole place lahh ? today was kind of boring due to the fact that we spotted too many couples around. make us feel ~~awkward nd jealous~~ HAHA. all those guys with girls nd their gifts with flowers :\ hmm. we talked all the way hahha. it was quite nyce to spent this day with a close friend ! we always end up tgt eh ? FATE AH. hahahaha !

all my sister got was sweets. nd more sweets. teehees.
silly girl.

black beads.

2006-02-10T21:28:00.001+08:00

This is the story of a girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
And while she looks so sad in photographs
I absolutely love her
my tp visit ytd was rather a bore. other of theDIRECTIONS went to nyp instead. rarrhs hehe. i'm thinking of either business or design course ? ahah i don't know ): then shir me cindy agnes nd chantel left for tamp. got some finger bites before heading home. nyce talk with gf on the way back. i bought Vday materials alrd. lalas pls, i'm fessed up over some matters. couldn't stay up for my homeworks.

today started out pretty bad. i got nagged at first thing in the morning ? urghs. then was getting late so i rushed out of the house to the train station. walking behind four bengs slows down my pace, had to overtake. stupid stuff happen :\ had eng tutorials after school. i hate pilo, damn the tcher so bias. i was late becaude of a meeting nd punishment was to sit on the floor ? wth. she even insulted my religion. sheesh what a woman. then not enough tym to complete my report but she made us hand in ? >:O aahhhhs.

the previous batch of sec4s came back for results (: though sadly i didn't get to see THEM ! ahahs. some did pretty good yeahh. top student got 7pts only. woahh man. so there was a declaration of half-day school on monday. ehehehhehs :DD

after band, went to get stuff with karen, shir nd joey ! kind of fun lahh. nd there was this effing funny part where SUPERR KURT CAME TO RESCUE ! lol. yeah mann.

(guy runs down the escalator to overtake us nd turned around)
me : (stares nd wonder in surprise 'woahh so tall' haha)
guy : urh excuse me ah..
me : (thinking that most prolly he looks lyk he needed to borrow something. hfone to call ?)
guy : my friend up there wants to make friend with you (weirdo expression)
me : HUH ? (so loud ahaha funny)
-we all stood in silence.
carrot : eh, let's go. loser lah. (something like that ?)
me nd shir : ..? (laughing)
-only joey wasn't clear of whatever's happening lols. she's effing CUTE lahh !

they love my chocolate pokey sticks ! hees (x i'll buy more next tym alrytes, yumyums.

"she woke up with hope but she only found tears;
And I can be so insincere making the promises never for real"
): - not a depressed girl pls.

[edit]
omgoshieee. i want a ADDIDAS JACKET pretty please ? heh natalie continue dreaming. Vday's coming in 4 days tym; money's gnna fly away again )x headaches pls. have to prepare so much stuff.
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This is the story of a girl
Her pretty face she hid from the world
And while she looks so sad and lonely there
I absolutely love her

tears of a paper heart-

2006-02-06T20:27:00.000+08:00

my life is so screwed pls. there's no improvement in my studies. there's no big responsibilty in me as a leader. i can't handle relationships with people. tell me about it.

it is so hurtful to be left on the lurch you know ? nd are these really called friends whom i can trust ? oh where is family quality tym ? why can't i be ingenious like fuck ? i'm effing depressed. sighs.

[main]
today was just fair. school lessons nd cca practice, homeworks nd pressure. i slack too much nd never change ): well, shirleen nd i stayed in class during break. it's nyce just having a good chat (: nd our worries for Vday with the gifts nd outings (who would want to spend it with me lahh crazy haha) thanks shir. but you know, life just goes on no matter what. we'll accept whatever comes nd go huh.

okay i shall do my homework nd study now. tmr's a busy day.
"i might be thinking too much, they say. but it feels like we're drifting. i don't wish to."
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[edit]
maybe we weren't meant to be. it could just be a play that im included in huh. is this so ? or am i thinking too much. its fuck. because i'm in doubts, nd my intuition tells me it could end up this way. which i never wanted to be repeated like those past. so sorry. i don't want to cry. not even tear. for this i'm not so capable of. but why all this ? these guys are jerks to say they 'like' or 'love' nd halfway through they give u up. can anything else be more cruel to a girl then this ? leaving the heart to bleed death. i wanna scream.

mum's shouting again. sighs. she's often out against me for goodness knows why. could be that i'm a little rebellious alrd. ):
[/edit]

~~jonathan~~ ; yeahh okays i've read. don't worry it's all in the past. it does not need to be brought up again. he's doing pretty well i guess. nd im sorry i can't bring myself to like you the way you do, because i won't change the fact that i'll always treat you as a brother/friend only to this extend, you're not really my 'type' too. please understand alrytes ? call me a bitch or whatever but yes, this is all i have to say.

the big bang-

2006-02-05T00:12:00.000+08:00

omg this is effing 'woahh'.

I AM A GRANDAUNT ALREADY LAHH.

ahahah. my niece (she's older than me) somehow gave birth this morning at around 4 ? she even caught a movie beforehand :\ cool huh.

went for visiting today (: ate alot alot of food until i didn't want dinner pls. then dad had to go to his pub alrd so me, sister nd cousin went to tiongbahru plaza. bought some stuff. got out gelatos too ! yummy :DD ehehehhehs.

honeyy msged me at nyte. misses. guess he's still out nd all. i was waiting for his reply since afternn ! meanie pig hahas. but i still love you dearest ((x

~~greed nd envy took over me. where's love ?~~

POOF it's gone.

2006-02-03T22:45:00.000+08:00

third feb. HAPPY BIRTHDAY HANWEN ! :DD

decided that most prolly i would like to score 15 points nd below. get into a good polytechnic (sp or tp) nd take up design or business. might be different from some others so i sincerely hope that friends will stay tgt yeah ? (x

omg u know what. i'm in english tutorial ! HAHA did badly for my ppr 1 last year that's why. i also have extra chinese (for band 1s nd 2s) on wednesdays, as well as phy/bio lessons on thurdays. sheesh. my schedule's pretty packed.

late for school 2nd tym ! hahs tired ah. lunched at sumo house with jaslyn again after english tutorial today (: it was yummy. but the bengs there spoilt our mood ahah. we walked the whole of bedok central even to the supermarkets ! nd we left for compass pt ltr heh. sort of went on a foodhunt lahh. FOOD man.

Ps we're having school performance on 24th feb at VCH ! featuring concert band alrytes hehe. pls purchase tix from naat [: selling price at $10/- thanks.

HONEYY I LOVE ! hees.

"I can't only come to you this far ; there are still some things that we can't do. We're more than friends, but we're not a couple yet.

Should i cry or not ? is it me or you that think too much ? I'm not very convinced, nd i also start to suspect. The person in front of me, is he the same, real you ?

The evindence of love cannot be found. When should I go forward ? When should i give up ?" __ quotes from the song `ambiguity - ai mei.

gong xi-

2006-01-31T22:59:00.000+08:00

27th - friday
met at cityhall to fareast plaza with shirleen after school (: last minute cny shopping. bought the 'blingblings' with her haha. saw some vaguely familiar faces there. then we rushed to bugis to take prints tgt ! it turned out funnily weird lol. then met my mum to go home. anyhow, so sorry hunns. i didn't find u tht day :\ slept awhile before heading to chinatown with parents ahahs. at early midnyte ! there was still a crowd though.

28th - saturday
cindy msged me in the morning (x we went to town again hah. bought our accessories tgt yay. walked nd laughed all the tym. then back to bugis too. met into charlene nd denise haha. they told us most of the shops were closed alrd ! gosh. but we went to bugis street instead ahah. then ran home for reunion steamboat dinner :DD how yummy. abalone nd all hehh.

29th - sunday
first day of cny. not enough time ; little angbaos ! sheesh. there was a dispute between mum nd some relative anyway. we were sort of unwelcomed so we skipped the place. cousin was with us to go visiting nd so it was not right actually, for her. as they say : ~~only a year after the death then allowed~~. urghs.

30th - monday
secondy day of cny. went for reunion lunch at the restuarant. nyce food yum yumms ! then i had to leave before dessert to train down to cindy's house to 'bai nian' (: her family's very friendly ! quite an experience anyway. had to leave early for my movie though. sadly, my mum called to say it ended when i just stepped into the cinema lahh ? was effing pissed since i ran all the way from cityhall to suntec (esp on heels) lols. we had prata for dinner after that. oh yes, aunty cindy's at australia ): she wasn't with her family when we visited haha. but we saw her on webcam ! nd timothy was with her. he's cute still ahahs. another aunt's danny boy changed too. he's now a big boy ! with charms of a potential beng. ehehehhehs xDD

31st - tuesday
nothing much ! sac band performance at istana is NEWS man. ahah. we took pictures with mr president too (: nd ernestine's so funny with her 'nathan owing her prata' ! lols. played a few pieces there. by the tym i got home, it was alrd 8pm ! no collecting of red packets today. oh wells :\ chatted online nd here i am updating again. tmr's bck to school. HAHA.

take me to the candyy shopp.

2006-01-26T23:57:00.000+08:00

omg. u should go take a look at geraldine's blog entry ! it was hilarious. i still can recall how joanne told us about it ahahs.

it's like everyone's telling me "i like your specs ". so woahh. but maybe i don't really look nyce wearing them on LOL.

cindy is mad about cny ! she keeps thinking of it haha. i'm worrying about my wardrobe etc so most prolly i'm out tmr after school to do the last-minute's. i need a fringey trim too ! hehh. anyway, went to syy's house with jaslyn after cca today. was effing late alrd pls ! reached home at 2230 hahaha. we ate home-made abacus there, did some homeworks nd went crazyy laughing nd all ! then her mum chased us out :X wahahs.

almost got locked out of the house when i came back. stupid bell. okay now i'm back to more homeworks which are all due tmr ! one of the frustrating moments in life.

ilhoney x) many more.

ilu is it okay ?

2006-01-24T18:15:00.000+08:00

SEVEN random facts about you:
1. I wear purple specs (:
2. I am always in a daze.
3. I eat my burgers neat.
4. I peel my burgers till they go '~~botak~~'.
5. I hate stares nd looks from people.
6. I can be REALLY quiet nd loner.
7. I often keep everything to myself.

SEVEN things that make me smile:
1. To love nd to be loved.
2. When I have kachinks !
3. When I have friends by my side (:
4. When I get something I like.
5. When there isn't any homework or tests.
6. When I do well for studies.
7. When I lose some weight AHAH. pls ?

SEVEN ways to win my heart:
1. treasure me for who I am.
2. never flirt with other girls !
3. surprise me all the tym x) esp when I'm down.
4. have money ; the kachinks LOL.
5. always be there to make me happy nd smile.
6. a fun person who can make me laugh too.
7. have trust in me nd respect.

SEVEN things I'm afraid of that are just BLAH:
1. People who critisize me.
2. Loneliness.
3. Insecurity.
4. Insects.
5. Mud nd grass.
6. Ghost ?
7. Death.

SEVEN things I do everyday:
1. Go sleep.
2. Wake up early.
3. Talk nd talk.
4. Eat nd eat.
5. Be deep in thoughts.
6. Sms people.
7. Yawn nd stretch.

okays. bought a levi's top nd esprit deodorant (lol) during the weekend shopping out at town with family x) ytd as well as today are pretty bad, hectic in school of course. what's with CNY ? i'm still stuck with CAMP mood with the rest ahahs. remember the 'FEVER' gang alryte cindy ! nd we've still got a long way of friendship to last ya ? ((:

hmmm. got to go get my stuff now. tatas.
_nd this love. it's contradicting. tell me what to do ? i'm lost myself.

tears of a paper heart-

2006-01-21T23:43:00.000+08:00

awaken by mum in the morning to draw stupid toilet features. sheesh. went out with family to suntec nd caught the movie 'memoirs of a geisha'. superr ! hees. then dined at sakae's with mum, sister, cousin, brother nd his gf nd a guyfriend. it felt somehowweird hahas. ate alot pls, even had green tea ice-cream :X OH my sister nd i realised that brother's gf is ~~hairy~~ LOL. omg i feel so mean to say that. but nvm now. still, i noticed too, that she's slightly taller nd skinnier than me ! i feel inferior urghs :Z i'm so fugly nd fat. ltr went shopping tgt. bought new school shoes alrd ((: so i need not worry for monday heh ! cousin nd brother bought levi's. then had drink from coffeebean before heading home.

my homeworks are left lying on the table awaiting to be done ah. i feel lazy though haha. hunns is studying till now ! makes me feel bad. i shall do it today in the late nyte since im not sleepy yet then [: lols. *i need motivation.

camp corri 06

2006-01-20T17:51:00.000+08:00

day 1
was going to be late to school on wednesday morning so i took a cab from bedok inter nd wasted my money. jaslyn couldn't come last minute because she was sick from vomitting ! my poor mummy ): then we were given class item : a bulky ring LOL. i only got to choose this black&white one urghs. our group is 'FORTE' ha ! there's noorain, chantel, beefy, me, angela, sam kee, carmen, sam chung, xue er, delvinder, tiffany, alena, xing ern nd yunling.

reached bukit batok campsite. the place is effing bad pls. the toilet is a long 5-10min winding walk from our tents. where is the easy accessibility ! the food was okay though the rice was hard. we didn't win much money from games so had little food to 'buy' for dinner. the f bastard was so unreasonable too ! yes he pissed us all till our appetites were almost gone. then it started to rain after the activities. unlucky as we are already, our group tent is the furthest from our class, at the muddiest spot ! so irky. jan tried to piggyback me to the pathway but to no avail >:( haha. i had to walk out of the mud myself. bathed in toilets with terrible condition (we were last batch) my first tym washing hair in the sink. gosh. before sleeping, checked my hfone. honey msged nd called ): but wrong timing lol. then chatted with girlfriend in the late hours ahah.

day 2
woke up early nd prepared washing up at the VERY FAR toilet. today we 'proved our maturity, took risk nd challenges' ((: instructor stephanie was proud of us heh. there was this game 'hard cold numbers' which we had first thing in the morning. filled ice nd water in basins to put our feets in. it was effing painful ! we were crying lahh. our feets were totally numb with lyk veins popping out ! so super sadistic. end of it all, we earned lots, nd bought maximum number of bombbags for the 'riots' game. 5 of us stupidly went into the bathroom to hide nd got attacked. i was the wettest in my group after it all ended lol. campfire in the nyte was pretty good. interesting nd funny ! we sang our class cheers tgt nd all. sadly, we missed the best part of it. sighs. oh but we witnessed a few girls who unintendedly went into the male toilet when a guy instructor was peeing. poor fella. HAHA didn't change tents to sleep with others after that, we were all tired out.

day 3
woke up 15mins before 7am ! ahah we were all rushing with stuff. instructor kept thinking i have a twin ! :X she's funnily weird. she's nyce nd smart though. had some talks etc. we packed up the tents, cleaned the dirtied toilets nd activity areas. was embarrassing :Z jan laughed at me ! so mean ryte. then it was goodbye to them nd off we go. away with soiled towel, muddy shoes, toothbrush nd disposable cups. haha ! geraldine, jaslyn, cindy nd i went to cavanas for lunch. cindy nd i went to tamp too (: we had ice cream nd walkabouts. urhm with my BIG bags lahh (hers is super small lyk going shopping ? lyk they said) i'm home alrd. tired. nd yet i'm very glad okay. i appreciate everything now ! especially friends nd you.

okay i'll have long baths nd good food from now on :DD great.
btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUPER KURT ! from nutty x)

black is not over.

2006-01-17T22:42:00.000+08:00

tiring long day at school. legion meeting was rushed through (where's my gift! haha). ms tan didn't check on us anyway. urghs wasted tym only. nd then off to tamp with girlfriend ((:

we bought this black bottle nd earring star studs tgt ! haha so cool. i saw my black PONY bag at royal sporting house ! gosh, too ex ): so effing saddening. i shall consider it next tym instead. went to Za too x) cindy's funny lahh, nd she visits the toilet many tyms. laughed so much with her pls :\ the annoying thing was ppl that stare at u for no particular reason ! ryte cindy ? ahahahs.

cindy : u're so punkish. (turning back while talking..) eeeyer
guy from the group of them : (look at cindy nd me) -eye contact
cindy nd me : =\ (urhm.) HAHAHAHAH ! (burst out laughing so long)
guys : (talking nd looking at us from the escalator down) HAHAHHAH !
// what the hell ? lols.

okay i better go off now to do my packing nd homeworks then. tatas.
P.s i love my honey alrytes =)

please take me away.

2006-01-16T21:09:00.000+08:00

went to compass point with geraldine nd jaslyn. bought some of the camp stuffs needed. haha nd OMG i almost lost my wallet there. lucky it was picked up by bk's crew ahahs. if not for them, i would just die pls. went to my optical shop then ordered my contact lenses too :X its 25 for just a monthly-pair sheesh. (nd yes a random fact : i wear specs hee)

pchem mcq test - 8/10 (so f it was carelessness !)
amath 'old' test - ~~4/23~~ (sighs)
stupid cindy x) i'm embarrassed pls don't say in your blog.

CAMP. urghs. fugly purple specs nd sleeping in tents. :IN BUKIT BATOK ! why of all places.
should i bring my hfone along ?

some things are better not told.
even to the closest of the closest friend.
- i shunt away so easily, not wanting to face the truth.

these feelings. i want to hold on to.

rantings.

2006-01-15T21:25:00.000+08:00

syy treated me to yummy korean cuisine today [: it was f nyce lahh ! especially the bi bim bap set. then we walked around the whole place nd landed at macs to teach me some amath stuff which i missed out during lesson. OH. we saw catherine at the interchange with her lil brother ! ahahah she looked so different now. shirleen where are you ! i missed you girl. maybe she didn't miss me hahah.

i'm effing sad. confused. freaked out. angry. empty. doubtful. worried. hi black. let my day be brighter tmr ! well, at least a grey okay ? hmm.

SYY
thanks bestie ((: for listening to all those dumb stuff. so retarhded i know. anyway, the food were great ! we should eat korean cuisine more often haha.

TRITON
honey (x must take care okay. must smile more ! don't be so sad. u better have more rest nd sleep early. because i care too !

JON
thanks for the chocolates (: nd there was another box. but you know, seriously. i can't accept the other gift okay ? its too much nd urhm, ya. sorry i will return it to you. please take it back.

yummy dolls house

2006-01-14T23:24:00.000+08:00

went to see st pats POP today in the evening with chokky nd her friend. met the others there too. the two were there. it'll just be an admiration from afar.it was quite interesting actually ! the intermediate band played well ((: then left for tiongbahruplaza because i just felt like shopping nd wandering around :X bummer. i spent my money on a pair of denim shorts. sheesh.

i'm supposed to go church in the morning but i'm lazy. i'm having trouble with my wardrobe anyway. sighs. syy says she's gonna treat me to korean food tmr after class ! yum yums [: i AM a pig (so is triton) hahahs. okay i'm f bored now.

what i look for in a guy :
1) sunshine boy (oh well no more punks i guess)
2) age between 16-18
3) height between 164-170cm
4) effing cute ! quite handsome ; with charming smile :D
5) sinfully sweet
6) thoughtful nd loving
7) doesn't use force (means respect is needed)
8) remembers special days !
9) when i'm alone or bored, he must be free for me anytym :10) bring me out to nyce places ((:
11) pays for my share ~~haha~~
12) shower me with gifts. lalas.
13) share our problems tgt
14) nd so huggable hurhur
15) never fails to make me SMILE
16) goes through with me thick nd thin no matter what
17) knows me well i guess
18) plays nd studies with me ! hehh
19) not too close to girl friends HAHA ; no flirt pls
20) love me for who i am <3 * P.s it can never be true. i'll never find one just lyk that LOL.

even so, cindy nd i always agree we can't find our partners tgt ! gosh haha. she says it's because we always tend to eye for the same person. funny eh ? we have a secret we share. silly girlfriend haha.

OH. i had a weird dream last nyte ! like i was supposed to meet him at a bus-stop. then i alighted opposite, nd told him to wait there while i'd walk over. he saw me nd when i reached, he was gone x( i was upsetted nd angry. so mean ryte ! ahahs. nevermind that, i'm missing honey x)

- "hold the star nd don't lose it"

one last-

2006-01-14T03:22:00.000+08:00

today's friday 13th; unlucky. sums up the day ahahs. it started out pretty bad with my uncle reprimanding me over nothing big a matter. sheesh. guess he's still drunk or something. school's back to a sunny warm weather again ! oh nd, i realised how funny tchers can be ! ahahs. ryte shir ?

it could get kind of agitating when people tend to ask (up to now) questions like "is it real ?" "real or fake ?" as if i'd have fakes nd not mind lahh. gosh. i mean, do you think imitation guess or burberry would be cool nd appeal to me ? yucks pls.

i was given ground rules :
1) must concentrate on studies
2) not to bottle up things to myself
3) NATALIE NEEDS TO GET REGULAR SLEEP :
update more ltr.

my last dance.

2006-01-11T19:25:00.000+08:00

back to amath tuition nd church mass on sunday :\ it was pouring heavily nd i was drenched many tyms. after which we went to eastpoint for lunch nd then off to meet my mum nd sis. went back pasir ris to see the under-renovation house. it's only ready around mid-february ! damn effing sad pls >:(

on monday. sec4s nd 5s had spot-checks by the principal as well as other discipline tchers. ahah. i was lucky not to be caught for my hair colour ((: yayy. jaslyn nd others weren't in luck though. they checked for coloured sportsbra, attire nd nametags too ! except for bags, how silly.

tuesday's hari raya haji [: yumyums. theDIRECTIONS (except beefy nd joanne) went for sakae lunch at citylink then to town ! sadly there wasn't the buffet price on public hols. then jaslyn bought me a beach ball ahah ! it's transparent with pink 'voodoodolls' wordings. we walked around nd saw many prettaye stuffs too hehh. evening by then, went to meet up with family (: bought a top nd skirt xDD stupid brother got his FCUK bag ! urgh -envy. then dinner at wisma nd arcade. waited for dad to fetch us home from the pub lols. home late.

i could actually wake up early today sheesh. but i was freaking tired in school by noon :\ hahas. ate with jaslyn mummy before i sent her off nd went home myself by train. the train rides at different direction. HAH. now's panicky tym ! i haven't done my homeworks for tmr yet.

TRITON :

hellos my friendfriend (youPIG) ! thanks for everything ((: especially that analogy thing. it's effing sweet i like it ahahs. do you like the background ? lols. a book is impt, so is a cellfone. please be happy always ! don't be so down nd keep thinking about all those stuff ya. you're still young nd have a long way ! hah. misses okay ? x) take care.

nd i'm trapped; writes:
everyday i face books. in school nd at home. i dream of books too. i read books with deep thots till i get hold of it. books are expensive nd of good use. i learn from books. (haha)
a frenfren will always be a frenfren and nothing else... says:
everyday i see my cellphone, hold cellphone tight as i sleep,eat and play.. never want to let cellphone go until the day i die. cellphone talks to me when i need help by getting ppl on the line with me. cellphone is expensive and of fantastic use. cellphone will never ever be replace by anyone or anything... no matter waht happens (=

"smile, u'll not know but someone might be charmed by it" -saranghaeyo BANANA friend ^^

P.s do you want flowers ? HAHA.

SHIRLEEN :

; shirleen. // says:
hey dear. thanks for your lil' note in my notebook! (: i feell so much happier now! theres alot of homework to be done. you should go do it noww!! =) and watch the 9pm show now. its nice.=DD love you!

heyhey. i promised to read your blog nd i will okay. i'll shall see you in school tmr girl. loves !

its so f retarhded !

2006-01-07T23:35:00.000+08:00

Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don't need. says:
wats so funny jackass
x - natalie. <3 says:
nths funny jackbutt
Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don't need. says:
might as well u say jillbutt
x - natalie. <3 says:
haha so u want to be jill nd not jack ?
x - natalie. <3 says:
u gay !

Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don't need. says:
bark for me
Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don't need. says:
haha!
x - natalie. <3 says:
(okay) FCUK !! FCUK !!
Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don't need. says:
HAHAHA

// what the hell man ? today is so crazyy. sheesh. just bored.

the ghost of you.

2006-01-07T12:10:00.000+08:00

one week of school is finally over :\ i now have many homeworks to rush through in the weekend. nd there'd be Amath test on monday alrd. had ~~height&weight~~ during Pe. i didn't lose much weight nd i didn't grow taller. so effing sad ):

the chinese tcher is f lousy. she doesn't care about our learning, pushing everything to be handled by the new HOD. she didn't even reprimand people who sleep in class ? i don't think i will be able to get back my A2 with this.

went to tiongbahruplaza after school to get some stuff. helped jaslyn buy her chinese books nd i bought some files nd pens. then i remembered legion's xmas exchange ! haha so difficult to choose what to buy nd give as anonymous. it had to be budget between 5-10 bucks. but in the end, alena still guessed correctly :X said my "handwriting was too neat". got her this ruby gloom stuff since i thot her emily wallet was kind of old alrd. nd yayy she likes it. so where's MY gift from MY anonymous ? haha. by the tym i went home, was alrd late at 2110.

there was sec1 orientation ytd afternoon till 1730. omg ! joanna came back nd she was super demure, slim nd pretty lahh. haha the envys. after that, went to bugis with jaslyn ((: we just walked around nd all. supposed to blog ytd, but was too tired alrd.

PS. cindy is a meanie. she laughs at people all the tym. HAH.
nd from next week onwards, i'm going to eat only one meal per day ((: think i can do it ? hehh. it takes lots of peserverance. we'll see how it goes then !

back to school.

2006-01-03T19:27:00.000+08:00

back to school ! omg the f train ride to school was super boring pls :\ u can never imagine ? then met the others at school. syy helped me with my badge ! woohoo. ahah. i'm so very happy to see my friends again ((: yumyum. i love my bagbag too hurr.

talk about school nd lessons. i'm feeling the stress alrd ! all those talks by the tchers of different subjects. nd i'm sitting with betilda this year. my gosh a prefect with me :\ well, at least i got to continue my position of 'PC welfare monitress' hehh. ms lim was talking about how aids have been on high rates in africa when she went to visit the country.

(so then) cindy : i wonder how they know how to have sex.
me : (look at cindy) haha !
(having heard the conversation, ayyn turned back nd whispered) noorain : maybe the male asked "hmm i wonder which hole it is ?" haha.
cindy nd i : HAHAHAHA (burst out laughing)
(omg) ms lim : yes noorain, do you have anything to share ?

then skipped legion meeting to go studying with agnes, cindy nd geraldine at macs. but forgetful me, i left my whole pile of homeworks under my table in the freaking classroom ! urh. so we only ate nd chatted there. guess who i ~~met~~ avoided. that moron.

so went home by train with agnes. she left stops earlier than me hahah. sheesh. so i had to spend the rest of the ride stoning away. nd this stupid old man nd old woman sitting beside me on both sides disgusted me :X seriously. that old dude almost leaned so f close nd the old mama was digging her nose eh ? oh myy, grotesque please !

eyecandies-

2006-01-01T23:57:00.000+08:00

to think of such a title for this entry, really. was thinking about my ~~lovelife~~ ( whatever ) nd a friend was asking me about it too. i have many eyecandies. just too many that it becomes confusing. nd the past was just regretful. but i'd focus on being straight alrd. that i'm glad to know ? hahah.

supposed to go to ophelia's birthday party but i couldn't. was late for it alrd anyway :\ went out to st bernedette's church, then to IMM with family to settle some stuff. all the while have been chatting online nd urh. msging with triton. lol he's funny lahh. oh wells, can't wait to get back to school nd see my lovelies ! just a day more ; i miss them so.

i need to do my homeworks tmr alrd. BAHHH. nd i have made a list for my new year's resolution nd part of my shopaholic list hehh. take a peep ? wait i go get it.

NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION :

I'd start school with a smile ((:
TRY NOT to be late for school.
Be nyce to people. rarhh.
Do all HOMEWORKS !
Seriously. go on a DIET.
Must save money daily *IMPT.
Keep in touch with girlfriends :DD
Do lots of running nd exercises.
FOCUS in studies.
~~Plan~~ my tym wisely.
Don't be so mean HAHA ! :X
Get all prepared pretty on grad nyte !
( & then go boy-hunt. who am i kidding LOL )

changes.

2006-01-01T00:01:00.000+08:00

officially year 2006 HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE ((:

so f pls. i'm stuck at home rotting while others were out to countdown nd all. this is a saddening experience of a lousy start of new year. i can hear the loud sounds of fireworks nd people cheering.

went to take a look at our under-construction house in the morning. sister nd i were fooling around as usual ahahs. supposed to get my converse shoes, but it was out of stock till wednesday. headed to town. people were spraying the foam nd party stuff everywhere lols. a crowded tym. then bought my bag just now at OG with sister. it's f nyce lahh ! hurrs. i lovelove my yummy NIKE sling. hehh.

[edit]
i saw her.
the girl seems happy as always.
they looked a lovely couple.
why do i not have the courage to even say a simple 'HI' or smile ?
we were just 2 f distant steps i tell you ):
am missing the old tyms when school used to be interesting
aye shirleen ? hahahs.
forget it. those past.

i'll wait for the entry that you're gonna dedicate to me poohie !
should have sneaked to your house mann. HAHA.
i'm abit pissed over some matters for now. sighs.
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facade_

2005-12-30T21:32:00.000+08:00

today spells b-o-r-i-n-g again. did some pchem notes for f 5 hours long ! ahahs yet i still have 2 more units to complete nd tys to attempt. halfway through was having nausea. went to the toilet nd almost puked pls :\ lucky thing its over now.

// bought those shoes alrd hehh. i got the green heels one just last week.

// nd this is the bag i thought of getting at first. hmm.

// but change of mind. these are the ones i'm planning to get now ! hehh. dumb drawings.

me WANT my NIKE bagbagbag. yumyums [: can i get it tmr or something, mum ? pretty please lol. ( i'd have to pay it myself though )

oh did i mention i lost my purple specs ? yes, i haven't seen it for days ! it's supposedly lying somewhere in the house but i've been finding to no avail. ahh so ~~dead~~.

You are Spongebob Squarepants;
You are the classic person that everyone loves. You are the best friend that anyone could ever have and never want to loose. You never cause harm to anyone and they would never understand your feelings. Life is a journey it's funny and calm for the most part. Stay away from traitors and jealous people then you will be stress-free.

[edit]
last nyte out, i saw a girl who looked like cindy. really. no offence LOL.
hahah i realised how funny friends can be.

; shirleen. // says:
but if i carry, i wld look like a monster
over the moons nd cows. says:
LOL

i.will.never.let.you.down. says:
why
i.will.never.let.you.down. says:
i look gay is it

over the moons nd cows. says:
i never see guys go diet b4
i.will.never.let.you.down. says:
now you see
i.will.never.let.you.down. says:
ok?

over the moons nd cows. says:
bye boy boy
i.will.never.let.you.down. says:
bye girl girl

the end ! cya.
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over the moon nd cow.

2005-12-29T19:19:00.000+08:00

hello hello ((: can you see that i'm quite HAPPY now ? hehehh.

by the way, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO JASLYN ! it was on the 28th deember. i had forgotten to wish her. sorry mummy, shoot my head pls.

band was f long hours yesterday ! yes i was late. haha. nd mr de hamel had to embarrass me infront of the whole band urgh. what stupid 'angelina jolie's' lips. sheesh. ended near evening nd i went home with chokky. had to rush back nd get changed to go out. went to isetan scotts for private sales ! yumyums.

despite being f crowded inside, i managed to do some shopping :DD because mum paid for all expenses !

JOOP blackndpurple jacket ~~59.90~~ 41.90
LEVIS squarecut"pauline"skinny jeans ~~129.50~~ 90.65
PINK:IND pinkpanthershoes ~~32.00~~ 22.40

all are discounted prices alrd ((: quite saddening i didn't get a top nd NIKE bag though, but finally i've got new stuff lols. i'm still saving up till reach 90 bucks just for it. -faints.

had band practise in the morning, did sectionals nd all. pretty tiring hahah. then went to have lunch with marcia at prata shop. yumm mmm. we kept listening to "knock it down" lol very funny. went home nd pigged till now. ahahs nd now mum just called to ask me do some grocery shopping to make for her a HUGE portion of salads to bring to her office tmr. oh mann, better go off now.

[edit]
back from the supermarket opposite hahahs. bought many many greens etc. oh nd my peach flavoured MOCHI too xDD there wasn't any mint ones. rarrhh. then mum helped me to change my mirror which broke hurr.
[/edit]

oh the kachinks-

2005-12-28T00:36:00.000+08:00

so ~~materialistic~~.

decided. instead of the PONY shoulder bag, i want that NIKE sling. the outstanding one with red nd grey patches ((: yumyumm. it's still too expensive though. pfft. why can't mum agree to help me out just a little huh ?

maybe i could wait. use those old bags on the first week of school nd see if anyone has my wanted bag alrd. if alls clear, i'll get it mann ! lol. i sound so typical singaporean.

hello i am ms ugly freak [: yumyum. says:
there goes my money. ITS FLYING CINDY
Miss POON* says:
HAHA! yea. its 'flying without wings'

sales for my pinkpanther's shoes ends on the 31st. oh mann. better decide fast.

left band practise halfway through for legion meeting with my juniors. gave them lollipops. then went home by train with teressa, nd she's so funny pls ! ehehehhehs :DD we saw this fat woman with this super mini skirt that shows her super big thighs. see alrd can faint ahahs. i think she knows we were laughing at her lahh. but nvm.

slept till evening to get something from syy at raffles place. supposedly to go out with mum after that. but after waiting for some tym, she called to say she cannot make it :\ i was quite upset since i bought a pastry for her on the way thinking she might want to have a snack. sheesh wasted my money nd tym. so i went to orchard walk around until it stopped raining nd came back here.

Miss POON* says:
oh ya! you kw santa claus is a HOKKIEN
hello i am ms ugly freak [: yumyum. says:
serious ?!
Miss POON* says:
yea! cos he says 'hohoho' which means 'good good good' in hOkkien.

; shirleen. // says:
hi mama
hello i am ms ugly freak [: yumyum. says:
hi grandpa
; shirleen. // says:
haha

; shirleen. // says:
charliee brown and pink panther can get married.
charliebrown nd pinkpanther can be friends [: the same goes for mickey nd pooh says:
hehehh

charliebrown nd pinkpanther can be friends [: the same goes for mickey nd pooh says:
let's worry until we stress
; shirleen. // says:
DONTWANT
; shirleen. // says:
STREESS WILL HAVE PIMPLES POOPPING LIKE POPCORNS
charliebrown nd pinkpanther can be friends [: the same goes for mickey nd pooh says:
HAHHAHHA

okay. tmr's band full-drills urgh, tiring. got to pass money to fiona for her x'mas gift lol. nd the other way round too. then maybe also able to go to the private sale at isetan scotts with mum to do shopping ((: yayy i want.

p.s saddening news from monday's program. austin is OUT of projectrunway ! my gosh. what happened to my gay love ? that wendy deserves to be given a hard smack on the butt.

nobody gonna love me better.

2005-12-26T23:53:00.000+08:00

went out with my family w/o brother, first to IMM to look at stuff then to bugis for some shopping. we didn't buy new year's clothes because they were not really in the mood :\ so i only got a basic top from U2 instead. cousin bought her billabong bag nd sis chose a nike sling which mum's going to get for her soon. nobody bothered to get anything for me ! so f urgh. i want to get that nike one though, need to save 90 bucks for it. to top it off, i saw pink:industrie's shoes at 32 which i liked. i remembered that i'll have to buy my senior's nd junior's present too, around 40. where am i going to find cash at this tym mann ?!

not a good tym with mum today. so ~~bitch~~. forget it. tmr's band nd legion meeting in the morning. spells B-O-R-I-N-G. then i've got to meet up with syy. anyway, i took the tests since i was kind of bored :

Natalie, you're a player because you are Cool.

Yup, there's no doubt about it - you're just about as cool as they come. You've got a great sense of who you are and what you want out of life, whether that's becoming a rock star, fashion plate, heartthrob, or America's next top model.

Not one to sit back and watch life happen, you're not afraid to do your own thing and take some chances to get you moving in the right direction. While others are struggling to keep up with the latest and greatest fads, you're making your own trends and looking sizzling while you're at it. Now that's hot!

Natalie, your Casanova is the Rebel

Hey there, party girl! Always on the lookout for the bad boy in the crowd, you like your Casanova complete with imagination, heart, humor, and lots of attitude. Cool and confident, you're attracted to people who aren't afraid to speak their minds and stir up a little trouble here and there. It keeps things interesting — that's for sure.

Pay attention to rules? Not a hot tamale like you! You're way too busy trying new things, meeting people, and having a good time to follow in someone else's footsteps. Good thing your sexy rebel can blaze his own path, too!

Scorpio Overview

You won't easily forget 2005, Scorpio, for a host of mostly positive reasons, and 2006 will be much the same. In fact, right from the start -- thanks to a burst of energy straight from Jupiter -- you'll be active, busy and amazingly passionate. The best part is that just about everyone (including and especially the powers that be) will be not only open to your ideas, but also eager and anxious to know what's on your mind and in your heart. For the first two months of the year, you'll be able to talk just about anyone into just about anything -- even if you've already tried and failed in the past. Keep that in mind, regardless of whether your aims are personal, platonic or professional. Basically, you'll be logically lethal until the middle of March; even then, the odder the situation, the easier it will be for you to present it to anyone and everyone as perfectly normal. Right around the solar eclipse at the end of March, you may even be able to talk someone into sponsoring a venture that will put you in charge of your own business. Needless to say, finances won't be terribly difficult for you to manage for most of 2006 -- your superiors will be practically in love with you, and even more infatuated with your work performance.

Speaking of infatuation, be careful during September and October. A 'casual' flirtation could turn into something far more serious around that time. Of course, if you're single and the feelings are mutual, forget being casual -- be intense! (It's your specialty, after all.) If you're happily attached, be even more intense. Your partner will be delighted to get closer to you, to listen to your deepest thoughts and secret emotions, and to share their own, as well.

In addition to giving of yourself, you'll want to give back in other ways toward the end of the year. If you're inclined to spoil your loved ones with material things, especially during December, think of what your mailbox may be filled with come February. Instead of objects, fill your life and the lives of everyone around you with enriching experiences.

Preference by Signs

BOOKS :
As the Sign of Death, Scorpio can not so surprisingly handle the metaphysical and more abstract quite well. Books that fit into the categories of drama, suspense and horror will stimulate your penetrating mind. Anais Nin ranks among your top choice for intensity, and Anton Chekov’s plays will stimulate your curious mind.

CAREER :
Analyst, Bill collector, Biochemist, Censor, Coroner, Criminologist, Debtor, Detective, Distiller, Diver, Doctor, Enforcer, Excavator, Funeral director, Garbage collector, Plumber, Hypnotist, Insurance agent, Investigator, Lab technician, Miner, Pathologist, Private investigator, Psychiatrist, Psychologist, Researcher, Scientist, Security guard, Surgeon, Tax collector, Undertaker, Union leader, Vocational counselor

CHOCOLATES :
Can't resist rubbing them all over their partner and licking it off.

FOOD :
Scorpio is all about intensity. The Scorpion wants food bursting with powerful flavors like basil, cinnamon, curry, garlic and ginger. If possible, the food should be deep red in color. As a Water Sign, though, there's still some element of Scorpio wanting food that reminds them of home.

MOVIES :
The intense Scorpion loves a mystery and a challenge. You probably prefer when the viewer needs to figure out for themselves what's going on in the movie. You’re likely to check out The Blair Witch Project, Eyes Wide Shut, The Shining, The Game, American Beauty or A Clockwork Orange.

MUSIC :
Intense and with a sting, the Scorpion wants music they can dive into. For name alone, you should try Electronic Trance, by artists like Ghost in the Machine and trance control. For more mainstream Scorpios there are the danceable sounds of Massive Attack, Moby, Orbital and the Chemical Brothers. In the P.M., pop in some contemporary R&B for a good time.

RESTAURANTS :
The tenacious Scorpio prefers to keep a routine and not be bothered with big meals, which might take them off course and off their itinerary. Your strong constitution will enable you to try a wide variety of dishes.

SPORTS :
The cunning and resilient Scorpio enjoys sports that test their mettle and require strategy and endurance. Investigate extreme sports, marathon running or chess.

TRAVEL :
Angola, Antigua, Costa Rica, Monaco, Spain, Turkey, Washington, D.C.

TELEVISION :
Always ready to solve a mystery, the Scorpion becomes entranced by the slowly unraveling narrative of the X-Files. On other days, they might tune in to see the adventures of Sherlock Holmes and try to outthink the great detective before each episode's end.

photograph by nickleback

2005-12-26T02:08:00.000+08:00

got back home from shirleen's chalet, pretty fun i suppose ? hahahs. too much to say. went to the arcade to play too ! cindy must be feeling high ahems. we played mahjong, bluff, etc. had jollyshandy, breezer nd champagnes. there was bbq nd all. i didn't forget to go churchh too, even if it turned out really boring. oh yes ! we went for interesting midnyte walks for 2 days ((:

// a beautiful mistake. lol fucking nonsense.

tired out. ~~droopy eyes~~. i stupidly fell asleep in the train nd those filipino maids were laughing at me :\ wtf ? nd i feel so bad because i didn't meet syy today urgh. pigged out till evening nd went out to eat at sakae yumm mmm. then dad brought home pizza too ! feeling bloated pls.

before i forget; MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ONE ND ALL ! there's 12 days till it's officially over. hohoho.

LVL 1

2005-12-22T20:54:00.000+08:00

3 days till christmas ((:

went to town for a short while. sister nd cousin went to the arcade at lucky plaza. had to return the library books at taka anyway, so i just thought i'd look around forever21 nd MANGO for sales hahah. since i bought the seventeen mag yesterday, it came with a 20% discount card for forever21 :DD nd i saw some tops i liked so i shall put it to good use soon ! now's time to save money again, bahh.

MANGO doesn't seem to have the jacket i liked anymore ! rarrh ): maybe i should try checking other shops just in case. it was even featured in the mag ! hehh. mum said it was rather nyce too. the price is also ahem. nyce.

levelone sent a mail again ! regarding boxing day, when i'll be able to do redemptions with my points accumulated ((: that's good huh. but i also need to update my membership card asap before the end of december. hrmm.

this is such a dumb entry. BOO. okay tmr's the fun day ! haha. toodles.

the brand new.

2005-12-21T22:46:00.000+08:00

nothing much on this boring wednesday. just thoughts of going back to school :
the BAD side is that _

tym is running out. i haven't completed my homeworks. no revision done yet. i'm growing fatter. nd i will be wearing my purple specs to school. so by the tym i'm back there, i can be a ~~laughing stock~~ sort of freak.

the NOT SO BAD side is that _

i can see my dear friends again. yayy. it'll be tym for my saving plans for good uses. won't be lazing around so much. maybe i could join TAF for fun again. hurhurr. oh how i miss those tyms running every alternate days, it brings smiles. lol.

okay. i've done with my new year's resolution alrd. nd it's tym for my favourite show; america's next top model ! see you around.

dirty little secret-

2005-12-20T22:31:00.000+08:00

legion was cancelled last minute today but we the draw-lots thing for the gift exchange. they like my lollipops ! ehehehhehs :DD

went to tiong bahru plaza macs for study group with kim nd jayne. quite fun lols. but we did very little notes for p.chem lahh :\ then walked around before they left for the train at around 8 nd i walked home.

fun tym at home fooling around haha. they got quite irritated with me. bahh. ~~who cares~~.

checkered stripes !

2005-12-20T00:31:00.000+08:00

a f cold weather this morning. marcia nd i went to bugis to look around before going to band chalet at safra resort. we went to the seaside walking barefooted ! lol quite nyce. stayed til evening to play card games nd watched mtv channel. super funny pls hahah ! so sad we couldn't stay over. then i bought shir's stuff nd wrapping papers at tiong bahru before coming home.

chatting online with some friends. someone spelled my name wrongly :\ nvm haha. i'm so looking forward to this friday ! yeah mann. oh there should be legion tmr i suppose. then i'll be going for study group ltr on in the afternoon ((: yay. now i shall better go read those fanfics i promised to syy :DD ehehehhehs.

oh myy. i'm so broke ): need money ~~again~~. otherwise it'll be difficult getting those presents. sigh.

dashing diva.

2005-12-18T19:31:00.000+08:00

[edit]
stupid ~~bitch~~ mum. said i should get my allowance from dad instead, nd kept insisting i have atm card when i lost it ages ago pls. then got angry just because i washed the dishes slow, as in one at a tym. i was making sure that i cleaned properly what. she pushed me away from the sink nd told me off. what's her f problem being so moody these days.
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went to churchh mass with jaslyn for the last 20 minutes of it hahah. then we had tuition after that at 201, today's lessons was supposedly much better. jaslyn had to leave for taka so me nd syy decided to go tm. we ate at shihlin's yumm mmm ! nd took prints too ((: there was unlimited tym for decorating since we hogged the machine when nobody else was in the neoprint shop. pretty fun.

// the BIG eyes ehehehhehs :DD

// don't think, feel ! hurr.

// we love food ! the frenzy.

// it's always you nd me. always. nd forever.

// we live in happy house ~

// korean translated : i'll be by your side whenever you need me.

// get the picture ?

those sweet tarts xD

we love us. the end.

lol. anyway, the pictures are much nycer as prints than on the computer screen mann :] parents came to fetch me back, nd they were quarelling inside the car. as in literally shouting pls. so f but nvm. we went to the under-construction house to take a look at the progress. watching legally blonde now hehh. kind of nyce. jon's leaving tmr to canada. how cool.

tangles of love-

2005-12-17T23:49:00.000+08:00

junior curia nd AGR today was kind of interesting ((: met alena nd gave her chocolates since it was her birthday today. went with her to st michael's church where it was to be held, but on the way there we were lost ? hahah. was surprised my dear juniors came for AGR too. the funny thing was they thought i put makeup mann lol. we had games with other praesidiums from other schools, nd i liked it when girls are rough. woohoo. came in third ehehehhehs :DD cool huh.

ended early so walked around toa payoh inter with maxine nd audrey. took a train to orchard for fun to past tym. the place was f crowded :\ family was still busy watching ~~king kong~~ urgh. then they made me go to douby ghaut nd walk a long distance to meet them mann. like wtf ? mum even shouted so many tyms over the fone when i had directions problem. had dinner together without my brother lol.

then went back to opposite tiong bahru plaza. wanted to buy school shoes but sister wants converse. sheesh. we got stationeries nd books at popular for the upcoming busy year. bought many stuff i guess. nd there's this guy as assistant who sort of keeps following me pls. kind of ~~irritating~~ freaky. after that we chilled at coffeebean nd got ourselves the ice blended chocolate drinks xDD too good to be true hahahahhs.

tmr's another lesson of amath sighs. got to go churchh for mass with jaslyn too hehehehh. tatas.

memories remain.

2005-12-16T19:36:00.000+08:00

shopped at cityhall again. there was still sales at MANGO ! hehh. got myself 2 basic tops. then bought chocolates for alena nd lollipops from candyempire ((: all those lovely candies, i want to go back there again soon.

saw 2 more items i'd like to get from MANGO. a half-jacket nd another off-shoulder top, but priced at 49 nd 36 each :X after discount somewhat. i'll just dream for it hurr.

syy said i shouldn't go shopping myself :\ but what to do ? don't think there was anyone available to go out with me. but of course. so f pls.

the facade.

2005-12-15T23:24:00.000+08:00

midnyte ghost shows are f scary pls. i think there's another one today hahs.

slept at 0631 nd woked up by 1030 :\ had awful panda's eyes for once. left the house to meet clarissa nd fiona to get charlene's farewell gift. shopped around nd finally settled on the VERY BIG bear, a pretty horn hfone keychain nd a simple card. how thoughtful of us eh ? ehehehhehs :DD had to get a farewell card for my junior too. it cost 7.80 for that one card pls. then we ate at fish & co's. yumm mmm. the fish there is effing good. but the portion was too much even though we shared. hehh. had a fairly good tym out i guess. was home earlier than expected.

tmr's bad. don't feel like going out actually. no one who would want to go suntec with me, is there ? hahah. i'm going to be like a 'wandering soul' again shopping around, then to the candyempire to get chocolates ((: by then, i would be broke. sighs.

i had some random thoughts. how f stupid.

OUR LADY PEACE_

2005-12-15T00:41:00.000+08:00

laid in bed till evening around 1800 doing nothing. then went to grillers for dinner yumm mmm. such a boring day i tell you. alrytes, i'll leave short messages on this entry then.

JONATHAN.
happy birthday to oppa ((: 16 now huh. do take care alrytes. although i'm still a little annoyed about some stuff today, u have a fun tym tmr ah ! hahah.

MY SWEETS.
are you okay ? i read your blog just now. it was kind of hostile :\ quite a scare to me i tell you. supposedly i've made u upset, i'm really really sorry girl. if ever you need someone. i'm here ya. nd i know, the ~~fucking~~ black days.

SYY.
okay, i've fallen for you. who am i kidding ? ehehehhehs xDD no lahh, i love you okay ! nd i miss talking to you alrd >:(

TIFFANY.
hello ms pretty ! how's the secretchokkyfamily nd the future house ah ? lol. i'm angry about the ~~fucked up~~ 2 girls still, aren't you. anyway, missing the chance doesn't make u dumb okay ? oh yes. nd do turn on your hfone 24/7 next tym please. hahahahhah.

CINDY * AGNES.
i miss my girlfriends. where are the both of you ? rarrhh. hehh.

theDIRECTIONS.
you know who you all are ! lols. how are you guys ? i so miss the outings together, very much i say. especially to ws macs ((: we must go out again soon alrytes. have yummy fries too hahh. school's starting soon. see you soon my dears !

the brightest star i've ever seen-

2005-12-13T22:30:00.000+08:00

after legion this morning, i took the train back with ms raju. she have lots of interesting stories to share hahah. in the end i didn't go out with the girls :\ whatever lahh nvm.

here's a f up picture i took lol, i like it because of the colour combi. was watching youtube videos hehh. darn retarhded pls. ah wells, yes definitely the days will be bleak, with so much stuff to handle.

found another great band OUR LADY PEACE. nd here's THE BEAUTIFUL MISTAKE's my reminder. it's a nyce song with meaningful lyrics, really. i've just fallen for it ((:

The years have gone by fast,
oh how we have grown
The times weren't always easy,
but hearts and minds revive
now thoughts of you consume me,
and I wanted you to know
You're the brightest shining star I've ever seen

Oh how blessed we are,
to share in everything
Life before was cold, cold and empty
Everytime I see your face, I'm reminded of
What It means to be alive.

The miles will pull apart,
and I will not lose sight
Of the gift, that I've been handed
Been blessed so much but why?
I feel so undeserving,
but I wanted you to know
You're the brightest shining star I've ever seen

Oh how blessed we are,
to share in everything
Life before was cold, cold and empty
Everytime I see your face, I'm reminded of
What It means to be alive.

All for you, you make me wanna try
All for you, I'll give you everything
All for you, you make me wanna try
All for you, I'll honor you forever

Like the sun that never sets
The brightest shining star, you're the brightest
shining star I've ever seen.

Oh how blessed we are,
to share in everything
Life before was cold, cold and empty
Everytime I see your face, I'm reminded of
What It means to be alive.

black day_

2005-12-12T22:26:00.000+08:00

the telly blasted in the morning nd i couldn't sleep more than 11 hours. cousin was stiff bored at home so at 0300 i went out with her to town, since she isn't familiar with the place that well. we took a bus down, kind of fast. first stop at fareast. bought for her the puffies nd she shared her shihlin's tempura. yumm mmm. then shopped around, bought some stuff. on to lido, got a galatissimo shake. it's kind of nyce, should try it. cousin walked away from me nd got asked by people for donations :\ she gave 7 bucks lahh, that silly girl. then went to wisma to get her roxy pencil case. she envied mine that's why, hahahahh. kidding. went home early after that.

i was wondering nd pondering while eating the bananas nd fooling with it. why name it BANANA ? nd who started alphabets nd made up all these words? f shit questions mann.

falling, but not a gal in love. says:
U LOVE ME SO MUCH
falling, but not a gal in love. says:
I LOVE U TOO

falling, but not a gal in love. says:
so yeah. im FREE OF CHARGE
falling, but not a gal in love. says:
dun paste that in ur blog pls.

hehh my lovely friend ((: i just realised i've got school tmr nd MAYBE out with the girls ltr on. you see, it isn't confirm yet. nd i'm not loaded with cash. rarhh. went to read the bitch's blog my sister showed me. hmm hmm. she also went to that place i went before, nd we supposedly think that her mum paid for it all. her mum likes to show her off. so now her friendster is like bombarded with stuff. sister commented it was sluttish. okay i won't be so mean. she might have grown slightly fat, but still have those pretty eyes.

shirleen let's have a BLACK DAY together. missyou.

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omg. i'm watching two retarhded shows. the first was 'frazier' nd now is 'whos line is it anyway'. there was 'project runway' earlier. nd the gay named austin looks good, though should be a gay lahh. am f bored. it's 0131 now i can't sleep. bahh.
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fuck YOU.

2005-12-11T20:04:00.000+08:00

went the 0930 mass but obviously was late :\ met some people there. then left for n2 macs to do the amath tuition work with syy. she's so HIGH today mann, joked so muchh. she was messaging me, nd here's part of an sms.

" .. he said im fat! n he make fun of my name! say me yingying he yingyang caz yinyang!! bastard gigglo sia. "

oh yes, we were laughing nd making fun of her black monk-like beads too hahha. found another racist person, ms chan. she called those muslim boys 'ninja turtles' because of their green uniforms, hehh. lesson ended late like usual so i took a bus with chuwen, ~~rushed~~ to meet jon hahah. so retarhded of me, i tell u. said to meet in the first carrier when i was like in the middle of the train ? i squeezed through a few times until i got stopped by the sudden large crowd from tanah merah nd got quite pissed lahh. so i dropped off at payar lebar to catch a second train.

" first thing u meet then alrd take out the money.. basket.. "

nd people were looking. i felt like a. nvm. they left for town i guess; weird people hahahahh. very :\ so i went home early nd got seriously bored to death. i thought, singapore expo here i come lols. i must be the f silliest person to go out myself. why not when i have nothing to do ? however, i realised the place sucks please. was alrd home when mum called to tell me she was at heeren ! wtf. she could have told me earlier so i could join her for shopping although i'm not really in the mood.

i feel so dead today. i'm kind of drained of all strength emotionally + physically. nd i don't know why. i may laugh nd smile, but the truth is hidden. strange, seems like something is amiss. i'm feeling stupid. i won't tell or say anything more.

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am i such a TURN-OFF ?
do i really look like a BITCH ?
is it true that i do behave like a BIMBO ?
am i very STUPID ?
do i look plain UGLY ?
is it so difficult to be my FRIEND ?
am i that HATEFUL ?
do people really find me so DETESTABLE ?
is it better if i didn't EXIST ?

omg. going madd, aren't i ? hurt all over. am feeling BLACK. yes, those dull days might be returning. i don't deserve friends. i have no love no heart. i don't seem to care much to surroundings. i do hate to be alone, but of course not many knows. i may look strong nd all. but what shit crap, the lies. i'm afraid to cry. my eyes hurt enough. maybe i could replace everything by laughing it off. fucked up life, i want to die pls.

enough said. maybe just too paranoid. i better keep it all to myself. i really don't know what's got into me. FUCK IT ALL. fuck you.
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PUSH THE BUTTON

2005-12-10T23:05:00.000+08:00

ate kfc with grandma nd had a chat with her this afternoon ((: it has been a long time since we were this close. the rest weren't with us as they've got their own plans today. sad huh. then walked passed some guys so i accidentally heard their conversation since they talked loud.

" chey ! thought what. her whole image spoil already lahh. "
" .. back view not bad. no, side view nyce.. "
" but she turn around front view not nyce ! "

// like what the fuck ? hahahahh.

then waited for darlingg at cityhall to go town hehh. her brother was there too, he seems like a nyce chap ! lol. at fareast, snacked at han's. we walked for many many rounds please. ms shirleen couldn't decide on a proper hair salon :\ hurr. so from pacific plaza to fareast, we went off to heeren nd cine. took prints, played the shooting thing :DD but sadly, only passed chapter 1 nd died mann. ~~dumbass~~. took the train down to bugis. she went to chapter2 for a haircut. oh yes, the young guy working there is cute xDD then was quite late so i sent her off to mrt station while i went to shop at bugis street. took a darn long time nd finally settled on a skirt. there wasn't a black one anymore but nvm >:( went back quite contented, reaching home at 2100. HAHAH. mummy gave me a nyce pink glittery lipgloss just now, ehehehhehs. hrmm. well let me introduce syy my friend ! i was having a conversation with her.

falling, but not a gal in love. says:
omg
falling, but not a gal in love. says:
ur dp scaring me
i got the girl ; nd he's left with just the memory we're out of track` says:
haha !
falling, but not a gal in love. says:
change it pls!!!!
falling, but not a gal in love. says:
PLS
i got the girl ; nd he's left with just the memory we're out of track` says:
i lyk it
falling, but not a gal in love. says:
im scared
falling, but not a gal in love. says:
PLS

// so i changed it to another. but she replied.

falling, but not a gal in love. says:
OMG
falling, but not a gal in love. says:
WORSE
falling, but not a gal in love. says:
NATALIE
falling, but not a gal in love. says:
PUT A NICE PIC PLS
falling, but not a gal in love. says:
NO DOLLS

// ahhh. so i had to put my pet sheep ahah. rawrrs. then she said.

falling, but not a gal in love. says:
U TOLD CINDY I WAS SCARED OF UR DP
falling, but not a gal in love. says:
EVIL GIRL.

hahahahahh ! oh mann. another funny mate i love :DD meeting her before tuition to do my amath work. i still can't figure it out, somehow forgotten what i've learnt last 2 weeks. anyways, st andrew's school band performing at lau pa sat tmr 1930. also, ROCKIN' XMAS III taking place at substation from 2-10pm by rock bands ((: seems nyce eh ? its $8 presale nd $10 at door. second storey is performing too !

i believe you-

2005-12-09T23:14:00.000+08:00

in life, do we follow our dreams; or do we follow the environment ?

woked up late today, nothing much to do. nd oh myy, when shirleen smsed around 0854, i was still asleep lol. watched some spongebob series nd the corpse bride movie with my sister. was reading 2 interesting yet incompleted online stories nd i shared them with my friends ahahhs. here's the link : ibelieveyou ((: when you're free, do take time to read it ! it's lovely. anyway, then darlingg nd i chatted. were kind of bored :
i got the girl ; nd he's left with just the memory we're out of track` says:
can i hold your hand ?
; shirleen. // says:
nopes. i only allow my bf to hold my hand.
i got the girl ; nd he's left with just the memory we're out of track` says:
can i hold your hand ?
; shirleen. // says:
nopes. you are not my bf
i got the girl ; nd he's left with just the memory we're out of track` says:
can i hold your hand ?
; shirleen. // says:
nopes. im not your gf and you are not my bf
i got the girl ; nd he's left with just the memory we're out of track` says:
can i.. hold your hand ?
; shirleen. // says:
(EHH. what she say ah.. i shall guess k)
i got the girl ; nd he's left with just the memory we're out of track` says:
LOL

ehehehhehs. she has another funny conversation of ours in her blogg ! i laughed at it myself :DD silly. hrmm. planned with her about tmr's date just now, i'll just have to prepare my stuff then. we'll be going budget shopping at town lahh, haha. i can't wait for han's yumm mmm. nd grandma said she's going to bring us out to eat tmr ! yayy. food oh food.

wonder how geraldine nd agnes' trip to northpoint turned out like. one staying at the far west nd the other, the far east. my myy lol. well, i didn't do any homework since i was lazy. i feel like a failure in everything :X urgh fuck. alryte, i'm off.

quote by shir // "i want to live life; not just going through the motions, but to feel nd rejoice."

the princess in rags.

2005-12-08T21:11:00.000+08:00

so sorry. i'll rant all i want nd i don't care. get lost.

went for study group today at ws library nd macs. there was this 2 girls who came to 'preach' nd interupted our studying 3 times, supposedly from some christian group. nd one of them was a butch. repeat butch, name's natalie. HAHA. oh mann. nd they were kind of freaky.

anyway, studying in macdonalds wasn't really effective. still, about 5 hours of studying beats that previous study day ehehehhehs. still, studies aren't meant to be interesting eh ? :DD oh i got SHAKER FRIES again ! hot thing. nd it was like me nd geraldine were the only 2 who did homework. then later in the evening, agnes cindy geraldine ran off to the playground nd bought food. like hello ? what have the study group became. they don't seem to be in the mood to do homework lahh. but nvm, i tried to finish up most maths. went home around 1900 with agnes. we had a nyce chat about our houses nd school stuff lol, yup. missed my show :\ hmpfs. my life is so dull ahahs. ltr mum's going to bring us out to eat desserts. i haven't eaten dinner urgh, skip it then.

; shirleen. // says:
GOODBYE MY LOVE.

// hehehh. i love my darlingg. yay. we're going out this saturday ! excited, oh yes.

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came back from so-called supper. on the way there, mum was on about pearlyn this nd that. in case u want to know, she's some distant relative. said that she became very pretty nd all. me nd my sister were "oh please, yucks. that bitch". nd serious, she ~~acts like one~~; no she is alrd one. so irritating lahh, didn't want to know muchh of her. but mum thinks that i'm JEALOUS of her ?! omg she's got to be kidding me. who wants to envy her mann.

so mum continued that i'm a rebellious girl nd my results were not as good as hers. why compare ? its so hateful, so heck with it. says she paints her nails pretty pink nd dresses nyce unlike mine. but hey, i like black so is there a problem ? don't forget that u told me that pink was for 'ahlians' so i almost hated it one time.

fucked up nyte. nd sorry. but urgh, i so detest her. oh nd her dumb mother too, who thinks that a student like me only having 7 subjects is dangerous. sheesh.

mum taught us a bad word ahah. fancy your mother educating you with such stuff. it's either hokkien or cantonese i suppose.

back home was much much better ((: sister nd i fooled around on the roadside with the others behind us. ND SHE PUSHED ME TO THE ROAD ! hahh. mind you, there were cars driving past. so obviously, i screamed my heads off while my mum shouted "want to die issit ?" but i couldn't care less. i pushed her back too xDD then we laughed. everyone looked at us lahh. madd girls ehehehhehs, should have taken the video. joked all the way back, walking nd running in slow then fast motion. the two retarhds. even my mum shouting couldn't stop us, we pretended we didn't know her lol.
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hold on

2005-12-07T21:44:00.000+08:00

yesterday was luke's birthday hahah. didn't get to wish him :\ kind of lost his number alrd, didn't stay in touch for long i suppose. went to school in the morning but legion meeting cancelled last minute, since ms raju didn't have the keys to open the convent library. anyway, only 3 of us turned up so it was okay. went to get my shoes from the bookshop uncle ehehehhehs xDD was so f embarrassing lahh.

got some help today from jon regarding amath nd emath. i couldn't really focus on studying though. people walking around lido made me want to laugh. okayy fine, i laughed :X especially the so-called gays hurr. then went back to tiong bahru plaza. bought galato ice-cream nd shihlin's oyster mee sua to share with my sister. hohums. yumm mmm ! had a good dinner i tell u. tired now.

conversations with my friends ((: quite funnaye lahh.

♠♥ŖЭčΩÑ♥♠ .. ♥Ħ.Ë.Å.Ŗ.Ŧ♥* says:
hey
♠♥ŖЭčΩÑ♥♠ .. ♥Ħ.Ë.Å.Ŗ.Ŧ♥* says:
jon ask if she can call you

// hahahahh jon is a new gay huh !

; shirleen. // says:
WHY AM I SHIRLEEN
; shirleen. // says:
HAHAHAH
; shirleen. // says:
I RATHER BE ANYTHING ELSE THAN SHIRLEEN.
i got the girl ; nd he's left with just the memory we're out of track` says:
shir, u wanna be "sotong" then ?
i got the girl ; nd he's left with just the memory we're out of track` says:
ehehehhehs : DD
; shirleen. // says:
I DONT MIND DARLING
; shirleen. // says:
(:
i got the girl ; nd he's left with just the memory we're out of track` says:
LOL

oh myy. tht girl is so nonsense ! lols. but i still love silly her the same.

aye, just saw this advertisement on the new upcoming show on chn5 "CRISS ANGEL; MINDFREAK" nd i'm eager to watch it. haha. okay for now i'm off to catch "america's next top model" yeaps.

surfer girl-

2005-12-05T23:21:00.000+08:00

townn today with shirleen nd cindy ((: we walked around but didn't get anything for ourselves mann. from heeren to cine to fareast lols. kind of a lousy budget tym out, it was a rainy day too. we're gonna get the black top next tym eh, cindy ? settled at han's for awhile nd got my rumball, while they got choc eclair nd peach tartlet. played ddr once at cine's arcade which was embarrassing enough. a guy who is about 20+ of age, came up to ask to be friends so many tyms ? omg. so retarhded pls ahahhs. i was freaked out, obviously we rejected.

then got bored alrd, they left early to go home while i decided to roam around wisma hahah. topshop nd surfbabe can be my new friends lahh :DD nyce sales around. there were choc bars nd interesting stuff in topshop. wanted to get surfbabe shorts - but its either no sizes left or not enough money yet. rarrh >:(

went back to tiong bahru which is quite fast, only 3 short stops to cityhall. ehehehhehs. bought something for poohie from the mall nd my dinner too. mmm mm. nd my feets were sore nd hurting lahh :\ very pain lyk f shit i tell u. came back on the laptop, chatted with a few friends that's all. my day's kind of dull huh ? sheesh.

anyway, going back to sch tmr for legion meeting, hopefully they remember. i'll have to get my sch shoes back too. such an ass to throw my own shoes into the wrong room, the classroom which is used for sales of books. since saturday, the teachers couldn't open the locked door so here i am waiting lol. oh yeahh, the wedding was cool with those 6 plasma screens ! st pats played 'all u need is love' quite well ((: yayy.

melty kisses.

2005-12-05T03:22:00.001+08:00

so i woke up late nd didn't get to go for churchh mass. lols. got a ride to tuition centre at n2, then met up with shir after it ended ((: we walked around tamp so many many f tyms hehh. at tm, linkways nd the pavilion. saw samantha with some others, yuping nd felicia too. then we settled to play the 'jurassic park' shooting game hahahahs ! quite fun eh ? haven't even got past the middle stage nd we lost lahh. oh myy.

at around 1.35 am, i took a cab from pasir ris to tiong bahru which costed $24 mann. due to the late nyte charges, nd also, the driver didn't return any change. maybe he thinks that i was giving him tips. hahah !

i'm back to the cramped up room with my laptop. dumdumms. just joined this thing at wholivesnearyou. kind of interesting i suppose. ehehehhehs :DD it's only for singapore residents for the tym being. nd u'll just need to verify by smsing stuff, costing only $2 for a whole year. yeah mann.

so they say

2005-12-02T21:05:00.000+08:00

i hate guys who make smooching noise. turn-offs please.

met aynn early this morning at tamp macs, she needed to get her stuff for camp. got my shaker fries again, the HOT THING ! ahahs. so anyway we walked around, there was this group of bengs nd some in green shirts. i repeat : ~~i hate guys who make smooching noise~~. rawrrs. get it ? ate at long john's for lunch, i had chocolate cream pie. mm mmm ! then went to za do eyebrow shaping ((: quite good. after which we went for band practice at 0200. tmr's the big day lol.

i had the most horrendous dinner today mann. my uncle does special cooking ehhehhehh xD but it's still very nyce of him to prepare food for us. erm. very salted steam egg, chicken with too much ginger nd onion, steam tofu with half-cooked salted fish, overcooked vegetables nd uncook campbelle soup :X i still ate it okayy.

BANANAS.

2005-12-01T23:26:00.000+08:00

ehehhehhs xD at 0331 this morning i was still busy on the laptop chatting online, but kinda retarhded. its either i'm too high or too bored then. all the funny shit lahh ! hahah. they might be thinking i'm such a dumbass heh. the conversation with guanwei da ge is the worst :\ in a nyce way yeahh. i was a fucking fool laughing to myself throughout the whole thing. we have dead siblings. hurr. then kelsey signed in nd the first thing she asked was whether i've moved house lol ! but no, i didn't. oh she also introduced me to her 'new lover' ahahahhs. it was an alien from the kiddy movie. i had no comments lol

thesecretchokkyfamily. mmm; says:
erm. ur lover is unique
These are the confessions of a broken heart. says:
AHAHAHAHA. THANKS NATALIE. YOU SO MADE ME HAPPY.

humms. aye weird wahahahh.

so anyways, went for legion work today at canossaville ((: fun lahh ? hahas. we played on the small swings which came loose nd almost broke down mann. some sort of vikings lol. after that, went for lunch with clarissa, audrey nd carrisa at pizza hut. the juniors ! hahah we laughed nd joked so muchh. bought the baked pasta set meal, yummy. but i also had my SHAKER FRIES ! the hot thing mann. yumm mmm :DD then we walked around nd to the bedok library too before heading home. no band practice since they said no one would be opening the rooms for us ahahs.

study group settled next week ! nd tmr i'll be meeting noorain first then impt band practice. since the wedding performance is a day away alrd. yup. sleep now, yays.

shakethat-

2005-12-01T01:28:00.000+08:00

let me recommend a nyce drink ! it's robinson's fruitshoot in orange with peach flavour ((: i bought it today nd for such a small bottle, $1.50 is kind of costly eh ? ahahs. but worth it since it taste nyce, nd there's a label which says : BY APPOINTMENT OF HER MAJESTY QUEEN ELIZABETH II. sounds so royal huh ! lols.

went for self-practice band today. played the pieces with clarrisa, tella didn't come while cheryl nd fiona are on a holiday mood hehhs. went home with them by train rides. again. everytym i bump into china people or blangahs lahh >:( rarrhh. ya i know, kind of racist. anyways, on the way home i got some mushi's moshis from 7eleven ! seseme, peach nd mint flavours. yumm mmm. then went to tiongbahruplaza find stuffs. bought new pencilbox for next year from preciousthots nd its prettaye in pink with glitter butterflies :DD then i planned what to get for shirleen also. yup hahah it'll be interesting lahh. oh ya SHAKER FRIES are a must-try okays. ehhhehehh yumm mmm ! hot thing.

tmr will be a long day of ~~tough~~ work with helping out nd band practice. hurrrs. i'm not sleepy ! :\ teehees. oh myy. well, nothing much to blog alrd. just chatting with shir, hanwen, jonathan kor nd guanwei da ge ! ahahhs. till another day alryte.

ps i'M MADD. the magazine sort of said something putting in a way lyk as if hero's got bad dressing style. argh.

chocolate fudge yummyumm !

2005-11-29T23:33:00.001+08:00

the train rides are making me hate them.

legion meeting today in the morning nd even being the ~~president~~, i'm still late. but it's because i'm living all the way at tiong lahh. hahahs. all went except two of the juniors so it isn't that bad ya. shared alot of experience nd stuff about the camp we had lol !

well, met up with cheryl in the late afternoon at tanah merah. my nyce bestie ! ahahs. we had a darn good tym together, yes ? went out to marine parade ((: she got her tops nd stuff. then we ate at pastamania yumm mmm. ehehhehs. we spent mostly on food huh ! after that, we walked around nd talked till we had to go home alrd. nd when i asked her "do you think our friendship will last long ?" she replied "yes." nd also added tht we'll be bestfriends for a very long tym blah blah. just the one-word "yes" really made my day mann :D oh yes, she got me this thing from preciousthots ! hehh, thanks girl. i'll be looking forward to more 'dates' with you ahahahhs.

hrmm, asked sister to accompany me opposite to tiongbahruplaza just now. the place is kind of boring to me lol. but it'll be kind of fun to pop by there after sch everyday ? oh myy haha. so anyways, i got some stickers for poohie :\ it's kind of difficult now to choose a gift for her, with my low income now nd not muchh creativity. bahhh. hehhs. but don't worry shirleen ! i'll try my best to make it a nyce one alrytes.

was chatting to geraldine, jaslyn, andrew kor nd jonathan kor for awhile. andrew's nyce but babbles nonsense also lols. geraldine gave me a picture of direction 'dong' ! thanks babe <3>:( rarrws. i miss theDIRECTIONS ! we'll be studying next thurs lol. lyk finally we'll meet up again, the excitement of having fun in ws macs ((: hohos. so tmr will be going for band practice at 0200 nd i'll have to play 'yellow mountains' 'danny boy' nd 'virginia' as well as help the juniors. another tiring tym. okays tata for now.

love me_

2005-11-29T00:28:00.000+08:00

[edit]
before i forget ;
HAPPY ANNIVESARY POOHIE.
our 4th month nd still counting.
take care dearest haha.
from mickeyy.

yayness. tiffy chokky lyks my nick ((:
but of course haha.
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legion officers supposedly had to report for curia at sji on saturday. somehow, no one wanted to lol. in the end, went with chokky to junc8 to watch st pat's nd temasek's band performance. there were some sales by school students too. we were on tym ya. met into natalie, fiona, ernestine nd shelly there. anyway, it was kind of nyce ? haha. their percussion sections are good. the fhorn players were not bad ! i was watching them play all the tym :D how i wish i was just as good. we ate at mos burger for lunch. yumm mmm. nd i would lyk to add, rossane's brother is cute hehh.

got told off by mum yesterday before i left the house. she thinks that i've been going out everyday with the girls for shopping, when obviously it isn't true lahh. i haven't got the cash or tym. so then dad fetched me to amath tuition which ended at 0100 nd so me & syy went to eat for awhile before i got home to pack the house stuffs. i barely ate one-third of my lunch nd it dissappeared ? i guess someone ate it >:( had no food till 10+ at nyte when im all tired nd sleepy. rarrh.

im now back staying with the family here at tiong instead. woked up early this morning to go back to my house for more packing. our rooms are almost cleared alrd ! phews. dad nd grandma came to pick us up in the late evening to come back here. she gave me some money ehhehhs xD got to save up again. OH dad tried to carry my school books until the carrier bag tore lol. my books are just so heavy lahh.

i've been rotting away not doing any school work. help, i'm feeling stressed ! sigh. but the place im staying ryte now is not a condusive place for studying. i'm still waiting to be able to get to syy house nd stay for a month mann ((: it'll do me good i guess. hopefully i'm allowed to go over this friday as i need to be in school early this coming saturday. btw, tmr i'll be meeting cheryl bestie. it's been aeons since we last met ! ahaha lyk finally. we've got so much to catch up on <3

there won't be anymore band practices till the 27th of december. but for this week though, we'll have to do self-practise in preparation of mr de's wedding ((: hoho how fun. can't wait.

go bananza.

2005-11-25T00:05:00.000+08:00

chocfudgewithicecream. mmm; says:
NO !
chocfudgewithicecream. mmm; says:
st patrick rocks more
st michael rocks yippie says:
nope nope
st michael rocks yippie says:
st michael
chocfudgewithicecream. mmm; says:
NOOOOO

ahahahahs. oh mann today's band practice was kind of special i suppose ? mr glosz came in, yeahh. he gave many useful tips nd all that *beams* alot of help. then stayed back a short while to play some pieces ((: it was more than just a mere 15 minutes alryte ! hahahs. was tired out that i slpt in the bus on the way home. the house is getting more empty ya. but it seems nyce to be staying by myself -till my dad comes back at night, the rest are staying at tiong.

came online to chat. andrew nd agnes is off alrd. boohoos >:( tiffany is funny ! lol we made a new family eh ? the "secret chokky family" consists of ms pretty with handsome boy; ms prettaye with mr handsome nd handsomecharmer. haha. see a love triangle ? only ms pretty and her handsomeboy have a lovely happy ending for now :\ lol.

okay she's nagging again, my mum. oh myy.

come ride nd roll w/ me.

2005-11-23T11:35:00.001+08:00

had church camp from 19th to 21 nov at Johor. it was overall interesting nd fun lahh ? hahhs. i'd love to play all the games again with my group. christopher, benjamin, joshua, jacqueline, felicia, christabel nd me; we're known as ST PATRICK ! lol how cool is that mann. well, there was one teamwork game in which we have to dress someone up to create the soldier of god HAHA its so funnaye pls. another group made ~~breasts~~ for a boy nd even made him put on a fake moustache ! pity him, nd glenn even went to shape it for him ? christopher said it was "sharp nd pointy" hahahaah. anyway, there was sweet-wrapper-throwing & wall-knockings every night between the girls' nd boys' dorm. even in the toilet since there was only a partition :\ many many things i shan't elaborate on. at the end of the day, our group got third *proud* ahahs.

i'm beginning to gain interest in band nd i'm gonna go for practices. i'll try to put effort. yes, im serious about it ((: i've thought of it over for quite a while. today i went for self-practice though it was made optional for seniors. hahah. see a new side of me ?